So, I'm so glad that this new roomie is moving back home on Sunday. I just bought this gorgeous weeding ring design comforter and put it on my bed. I've been obsessive about keeping it clean because my my washer is too small to wash it in and I have to go all the way to the laundromat to wash it. So today she lets the dogs out in the backyard, in ( Read more... )

There are just days when I look in the mirror and I say to myself, what the hell is the matter with you? Why do I let little things, that shouldn't bug me at all, bug the crap out of me. I mean, does it really matter what I think or feel as long as the people I love are happy? I don't think so. I've spent so much of my life unhappy, but faking ( Read more... )

Wo0t Lisa!

This is cute!

Why do I feel this way? Why the hell do I just want to turn on my shower and stand under the nozzle until I wash away into nothing? I hate the way I feel. God. I need to just check myself into the looney bin and be done with it. When one thing goes wrong, everything goes wrong. I'm sick, they can't figure it out. Hell, I could be dying and they ( Read more... )

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So I quit my job yesterday.... I feel wonderful about it. I couldn't stand that place and I already have four job interviews lined up. So why do I feel kinda lost? It could be because I'm still massively ill and I feel like I should already be over it. I don't know honestly. I just know as recently as yesterday I felt so calm and peaceful and happy ( Read more... )

Hi kiddies. Yeah I know I just posted a couple hours ago. But I just found these old poems I wrote. And I thought, wow, how much have a grown since then? I remember when I wrote these. I was so lost and alone. And now I feel complete and loved. I feel like a completely different person...in just a year....I don't know how! But I know I do. And I'm ( Read more... )

I called in again today. I have no voice so I can't answer the phones. Oh well if I lose my job I'll just get a different one.

I took a couple quizzes cuz I couldn't fall back asleep.


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Ok...so you know you are massively ill when you stumble out of your bedroom at 6:30 in the morning and your roomie picks you up, carries you back to bed, and calls your boss to tell them you won't be there today. And now that I'm barely comatose I'm debating just calling them and telling them I won't be there at all. I positively LOATHE my job. I ( Read more... )