i went to the mall today. i didnt get a whole lot though. i got a new pair of jeans though!! they are cute. i also bought some stuff for me and my mom at BB&W..everything was on sale that i bought so it only cost me like $20 for everything. good deal ( Read more... )

so it was a pretty good weekend. Friday evening..me and RJ went shopping. can you believe it? RJ went with me!! lol it was still really crowded, i would have thought the mall would have calmed down by the time we got there which was around 4pm. i already spent my Aero gift cards. i wanted a new pair of jeans SO bad but they didnt have any in my ( Read more... )

yesterday i had a good Christmas. i went to bed way too late the night before and then my parents and Kaylie woke me up..WAY too early. but it was ok..it was Christmas. Kaylie loved all her stuff. we are still taking things out of the box. she hasnt gotten to play with everything cuz its just SO much of it. i got quite a bit of things too. it was ( Read more... )

so on waking up this morning, i feel a bit better about everything. i shouldnt feel bad cuz its not like i have kept Kaylie from sperm donor..he had his monthly visit..he doesnt need another one until next month. i have too much to do and this is my favorite holiday that i shouldnt let him ruin it. im ok ( Read more... )

im doing better now. im not calling him back and im not caring. at first when i heard the message, i didnt care..he had his chance and he fuckin screwed it up. then i got to thinking and thats when i made myself all upset. i called my therapist cuz i needed to get control of the situation. she told me that she thought i should return the phone call ( Read more... )

ok so my phone rang right before i got on here and i ALMOST answered it and then something just told me not to. so i didnt. well i checked the machine and it was a call from sperm donor saying to call him back my convience [i didnt know he knew what that word meant-haha] and he left his cell phone number. i just deleted it though without writing ( Read more... )

im excited about Christmas. its hard not to be with Kaylie all excited. i cant wait to see her face on Christmas morning! its a lot of fun to be keeping up the Santa Claus thing..kinda makes it more magical i guess. Tammy and Craig are coming over tomorrow for our Christmas Eve thing like always. we are having dinner, going to church and then ( Read more... )

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i have figured out that people just dont like me. i think people want me to be quiet and just go with the flow. i just have this feeling that im a horrible person and that no one likes being around me. im annoying.

so where do i start? so much to be smiling about and so much to be bitching about. hmmmm..well i got my period yesterday. the cramps are suckin but i took some medicine and i feel a bit better ( Read more... )