lately all my shit keeps coming up missing. so far i have been unable to find my shogun shirt, my fall of troy and journey cds, a couple dvds and now my black work belt. where the fuck is all this stuff going? i ask brent to help me find it and he swears up and down that he doesn't have any idea where it all goes, although i know that on ( Read more... )

just send the papers already. bury me facedown so the world can kiss my ass.

it hurts so bad to think that i might never have another day with my wife. it's like she died or something. i feel so much sorrow and pain most of the time, and no words of encouragement make me feel any different. yeah, sometimes a spurt of hopefulness for the future and love might pop into the day but it's more like a fantasy than a reality. ( Read more... )

since surveys are all the rage, ( here we go )

my hands look like hand-burger. i have gotten an injury on almost each digit of both hands in the last week and a big fat slice down my palm. it's all from cabinetry edging. the shit cuts through my nitrite gloves as well. lots of fun ( Read more... )

life is slowly going on. recently it seems like i woke up from a long dream of love that turned out to be just that; a dream. every day that i wake up here at 4:30 and look at my surroundings i start to get the feeling that there never was a home back in illinois. like the past ten years were just a long dream that had its ups and downs that the ( Read more... )

the cds i can't live without in all ( their glory )

found a survey to do because i was bored.
( thanks maggie )

it's wednesday morning, and time seems to go on relentlessly into the future. i'm getting older and older by the second, and my wife is not here. i still miss and love her so much it hurts. i was mad about her saying she would not come here to live, but i realize that i can't change her any more than she could change me. i just wish her plans ( Read more... )

so james came up saturday for the weekend and explained to me that he and veronica are moving to boston in september because she is getting accepted into harvard, and that i should come with because james is getting a loan from a rich relative for over 50K to start his own tattoo shop in boston. he has already offered to teach me the trade as long ( Read more... )