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[danykatovy]

So I made the mitake of being honest in my journal entries for my womens studies class and talking openly in them about my ED and what it means to me and how I feel about it. I was talking to my wst teacher yesterday about maybe having to miss class next week to deal with the heart monitor shit and she's pulling the whole "poor little eating

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[always]

i know exactly how you feel, with the teacher thing.
when i was growing up, my mother was always in and out of psychiatric facilities and jail. she went from #1 PTA Mom to Crista's psycho mom in a matter of a month.
from 6th grade til 12th grade, the teachers would always pull me aside and say that shit to me. and then accidently boost my test grade 20 points or give me an A in the class.
that's what I got for being honest.

[always]

wow.. im not bitter.
haha.

[danykatovy]

its understandable to be bitter. I know for me, I want to know if I'm doing good in the class becuase I'm doing good in the class not becuase I'm EDed

[kawaiinoir]

If you tell the nurse you are prone to fainting they should let you lay down. I never have blood taken unless I am horizontal.
Keep us posted on things and look after yourself sweetie. Please try not to purge if you're blacking out after doing it.. I know it's hard, I'm just worried for you.
Take care
xx

[danykatovy]

Thanks for the advice. I've never had blood taken before, but I have a fear of needles and it kinda scares the crap out of me.
I will keep everyone posted on whats up, hopefully it'll be nothing major.
I only blacked out after purging once in the last week and twice in my life. I haven't purged since that happened the last time. I'm also trying to somewhat eat normally so my levels are somewhat normal. I don't know if it makes sense but it makes sense in my head.
thanks again

[analxcore]

last year i was a senior in high school, and was going out-patient..but during school hours for treatment (eating disorder program),and had to individually tell each one of my teachers what was going on...they pulled the same shit, and i felt like a disgrace...like..."wow,they must be thinking why can't she just pick up a fork & eat?",or "she's not EMACIATED..what's she need treatment for"? and i felt like a failure the last 3 months of school....

they're problably just concerned for you & want you to get better.
take care <3