what lies ahead?

[produce_results]

with all the weddings coming up this summer, i can't help but to think about my own future in that department. now, i realize this is beating a dead horse, but it's still something i think about.

will there be a day when manda "wins"?

i've always tended to think not, but lately that feeling is stronger. how long does the average person go before

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[siren__siren]

I may not be the best person to comment on this particular subject....but i will any way :) I would say not to get to worried about it but that is next to impossible not to do. Especially in our society when marriage is supposed to be the most important part of our lives. When i think about it though i feel like thats a stupid things to be living for. From what i understand its not the most easy or satisfying thing ever... And as far as the whole God thing goes, if that is what we are living for we are obviously not paying much attention to him. I was discussing this with a friend who is have trouble with her boyfriend and had a thought. Why do we put ourselves through all that pain and heartache trying to get this thing thats apparently supposed to complete our lives? Especially when the bible says (and im paraphrasing here) that God has a plan for our lives (cliche). And if thats something he wants for us he'll bring it about and our trying to rush it will only make it more painful waiting. So i came to the conclusion to just focus

herm.

[anonymous]

I am sorry that you are feeling like this. Not because it's bad, necessarily, to be pondering life, but that you were depressed about it. I'm probably the 2nd person you DON'T want to be hearing on this, but I did have a little thought to add, besides just telling you that I love you. I was going to say that, sometimes, when you let go, life happens. And when you think you've got it all worked out, it doesn't. So just because you are the ripe old age of 22 and not going to school at the moment doesn't mean that you won't ever go back to school, or go back to church, or meet someone cool through your friends or WHILE working your graveyard job. And if you don't, you won't have to drag someone along while you roam the earth taking amazing pictures and being you. :) Whatever happens, my dear, will happen. Buckle up and let life begin again.