i saw a video in wills profile about a guy who shot him self in the mouth and i wished it was me. i dont want to be in this world anymore because its way to painful to be in anymore. the only reason i stay is becaues of 1 person but its still hurts. sometimes i wish a school shooting would happen were i go to school and i was the only 1 who got ( Read more... )

i was supposed to run in my track meet but i guess my coach thinks im not good enough so he didnt want me to. doesnt surprise me since LL is such a fucked up school. tht didnt help me any to feel better. it all jst doesnt end ( Read more... )

havent written in here in awhile. nuthins really changed. thinkin about doin gymnastsics with srah. not sure. i have a track meet tomorrow at 4:00. not sure how ill do dont really care either track isnt fun and i dont get anything out of it so. i changed my pic it suits how feel about life. and i dont think it will change unless someon comes into ( Read more... )

I dont look forward to weekends anymore because i dont do anything and i hate it. I hate being alone when i know i need someone whos their when i need them. It seems tht the closer i get to some one and when i finally think tht they r perfect they fond someone else. I so tired of trying to make things work with immpossible odds ( Read more... )

I havent written in this thing in like a frakin year. but hey thts life anf im writting in it now so SHUT UP!!!!! lol jk track is track and thts not really changin so im cool with tht. My bud sarah got baack from maine and shes been good since. My brother isnt good enough to be mentioned here but im such a nice guy hes in it ( Read more... )

so i had a track me tht i jst got back from and i beat my personal best of 8:01 to 7:42 which us pretty shweeeeeeeeeeeetttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ken mcguiness isnt my captin so i dont have to put up with his shit anymore........................and the new captain is my brother. nuthin else is really goin on. still single ;) not sure if ( Read more... )

i had a track meet today but i didnt get picked to do anything so i stayed home. im so sick of being out spoken and left to fuckin rot. all i want is jst a little acknowledgement from her but it wont happen so im jst getting my hope up to get crushed. i wish she'd jst say she hated me and finally crush me so i dont have to think about her 24 ( Read more... )

so tired so i guess ill talk here. not really doin much. track sucks cause my captin doesnt recgonize me cause im not the super duper athlete he is. FUCK HIM. i dont care if im not as good as he is because all he does is run ( Read more... )

nuttin much is really goin on sept im lookin for a grl ( and if i do find 1 the one i really want will be free lol was is it so hard.) and track. in our first scrimmag i ran the mile( also known as the 1600 meters its like i told u before i can go for a LONG TIME :)). we have another scrimage tomorrow so will c how i do in tht. all thta left is my ( Read more... )

ahhhhhh is it jst me or is track like the hardest god damn thing in the world. LOL. it wouldnt be so bad if i didnt have to run distance because tht intales 1600 meter and 3200 (1600= 1mile and 3200= 2 miles). but hey its not all bad girl track is their and watching the ladys stretch is a + :) and somtimes ( if im lucky ) cheer leading squad is ( Read more... )