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maybe i'm like the only one dealing with this whole thing irrationally right now, but the way i see it is if you're play fighting with your best friend who is a guy it isn't just play fighting. idk. like andrew play fights with girls and it's to get in their pants, not just because he wants to punch a girl in the nose or something. and i'm not like saying that jemma has cheated on me which i think oller thinks i was like saying that to him when we spoke because i don't think that. i don't want to think that. it was just this whole situation that i got kind of really cheesed over and it went downhill. I DON'T KNOW so freaking sue me for caring about my girlfriend and what she is doing with other guys. jesus. and hey, chelsea was all here's some info you need to know and i kind of got myself prepared for it and she was all nvm nvm.
still, i don't really feel like talking to jemma right now because she said she loves me. i mean like how long have we been going out? idk jesus god i don't even know what to say to her. i guess i was kind of a tool for signing off after she told me but it was the circumstances in which she said it that made me want to shoot a bazooka through the wall or something.
ugh. for freaks sake. i should probably just talk this out before it turns into some crazy days of our lives episode where everyone is staring at each other in these intense ways and then one guy grabs a knife and just GOES FOR IT. yeah, don't want that happening.
we need to talk man. whenever, i don't care.
hey let's forget what you said about jemma, okay?
i lost out to the part in in the motherhood to ryan and surprisingly, i'm okay with that.