For lack of real updates
So...
Tomorrow:
Class 9:30-10:45 (history)
Class 12:30-1:45 (soc theory)
Class 2:00-3:15 (criminology)
Hoping against hope to have someone pretend to be my Valentine
Work out (chest and shoulders?)
Wednesday:
Class 9:00-10:50 (Anthro)
Study random soc theory and criminology and history and anthro stuff
Work out (back)
Thursday:
Class 9:30-10:45 (history)
Class 12:30-1:45 (soc theory)
Class 2:00-3:15 (criminology)
At 3:15 I am free for the weekend!
Party a Elise's that night and flirting fun with random girls!
Friday:
Wake up relatively early (say 11a?)
Go home with parents (1p)
Watch brother play basketball
Saturday:
Do random pre-shopping for Ft. Lauderdale Trip
Night hang out with Dave and Lindsey!
Sunday
Go back to WMU!
In life:
Seems to be going well enough, could be going better. Always could be going better. You know when you feel like you are having the best time in your life but then it turns out that you aren't satisfied for one reason or another. Right now it feels like I have fallen into a repetitive rut. Like there isn't any excitement in my life that isn't planned. Yeah, I party at Elise's and meet random people who are fun, but its on a regular thursday schedule. I feel like I am going nuts. I just look back at the last few weeks and I realize that my life has run in cycles based on the day that it is. You know... wake up -> go to early class -> study -> go to afternoon class -> eat -> work out -> catch up on reading for next day -> repeat.
Its like I want someone to spice up my life a little bit... even at its most exciting this semester, it was still not... I hate this expectation that we should be happy because I dislike it for being a United Statesian thing, but I still can't escape it. I guess I dont neccisarily want to just be happy. I just want to feel something. Even worse, I know that I'm grasping at that feeling toward someone that it just wont happen but still I hope for that little tiny itsy bitsy chance that it could work... as wrong and irrational as it is. Honestly though... who said that it was right to be rational. According to Max Weber, rationality of the capitalist society has ruined the mysticism of life. Rationality created the beurocrat, heartless and soulless. If that is what rationality is, I dont want to be rational, I want to be everything that isnt rational! Still, I hope that after V-day this feeling goes away... its a bit depressing.
I mean, I'm excited about this Ft. Lauderdale trip, but not for the craziness because I am not big on the craziness that tends to get you in trouble, but because it should shake up my routine a lot.
I am excited about seeing Dave again, I can talk to him about this mental craziness that is going on. Dont expect that he can help, but at the very least we can have some interesting discussions on theory shit. I wish that the sociology program was like the engineering and nursing program here where everyone pretty much knows everyone else. It would make for good conversation that I dont get very often...
As much as I dredded it, my presentation in my sociological theory class went pretty well. I felt like I said some stupid things, but I think that is to be expected when you discuss this stuff with a guy who has taught this class for as long as I have been alive. I just wish my group had answered some stuff... it felt like the professor would ask a question... and I would sit back for a few seconds then when no one answered, I would answer then they would kinda agree with me but only changing their statement by enough that it didnt include the embarrasing stupid shit that I said. I was a little dissapointed with the girl in my group, she seemed really smart but reminded me of some people in that she was so obsessed with the text that she never thought to think outside it. What is the point of understanding if you cant argue it.
But, back to my problem with routine... this is the reason I want to become a police officer. I want to experience something new or exciting every day and you lose that if you have routine. No fun. I think between my planned uber-crazy work schedule next summer, I am going to try out some volunteering... maybe I will apply at the YMCA for their summer camp stuff, of course that wouldnt be volunteering but from what I hear about their pay it might as well be. Plus! I probably wouldn't have to pay for a membership at the YMCA to work out. Ugh, I am not looking forward to going back to that gym again after being at Westerns for another semester. The rec here is amazing, hate giving it up. The summer camp would probably (almost definitely) be full time and its pretty close to home. ANNNNND I wouldnt have to work at Qdoba. Dont get me wrong, I have had MUUUUUUUCH worse jobs than Qdoba (BK lounge, McD's and LCC to name a few) but if I believed in a 'calling' that religious people talk about a lot, I doubt that Qdoba is it. Working at the Y gets me closer to the community as an equal instead of being close to the community as a subservient (okay its not that bad). I will go talk to someone this weekend about it, I dont think it could be too hard to get a job there doing something... Dad has been working out there for like 15 years and knows pretty much everyone there and I have gone there occasionally since I was born. Think it will be a problem that I'm not a christian... I know that they are a christian organization but I don't remember it being like super preachy at the camps at all. I think Lynsey's sister worked at that camp for a few summers and I am pretty sure she is not christian...
Alright, enough with me putting off my work...
Drop me a line if you wanna meet up over this weekend.
Tomorrow:
Class 9:30-10:45 (history)
Class 12:30-1:45 (soc theory)
Class 2:00-3:15 (criminology)
Hoping against hope to have someone pretend to be my Valentine
Work out (chest and shoulders?)
Wednesday:
Class 9:00-10:50 (Anthro)
Study random soc theory and criminology and history and anthro stuff
Work out (back)
Thursday:
Class 9:30-10:45 (history)
Class 12:30-1:45 (soc theory)
Class 2:00-3:15 (criminology)
At 3:15 I am free for the weekend!
Party a Elise's that night and flirting fun with random girls!
Friday:
Wake up relatively early (say 11a?)
Go home with parents (1p)
Watch brother play basketball
Saturday:
Do random pre-shopping for Ft. Lauderdale Trip
Night hang out with Dave and Lindsey!
Sunday
Go back to WMU!
In life:
Seems to be going well enough, could be going better. Always could be going better. You know when you feel like you are having the best time in your life but then it turns out that you aren't satisfied for one reason or another. Right now it feels like I have fallen into a repetitive rut. Like there isn't any excitement in my life that isn't planned. Yeah, I party at Elise's and meet random people who are fun, but its on a regular thursday schedule. I feel like I am going nuts. I just look back at the last few weeks and I realize that my life has run in cycles based on the day that it is. You know... wake up -> go to early class -> study -> go to afternoon class -> eat -> work out -> catch up on reading for next day -> repeat.
Its like I want someone to spice up my life a little bit... even at its most exciting this semester, it was still not... I hate this expectation that we should be happy because I dislike it for being a United Statesian thing, but I still can't escape it. I guess I dont neccisarily want to just be happy. I just want to feel something. Even worse, I know that I'm grasping at that feeling toward someone that it just wont happen but still I hope for that little tiny itsy bitsy chance that it could work... as wrong and irrational as it is. Honestly though... who said that it was right to be rational. According to Max Weber, rationality of the capitalist society has ruined the mysticism of life. Rationality created the beurocrat, heartless and soulless. If that is what rationality is, I dont want to be rational, I want to be everything that isnt rational! Still, I hope that after V-day this feeling goes away... its a bit depressing.
I mean, I'm excited about this Ft. Lauderdale trip, but not for the craziness because I am not big on the craziness that tends to get you in trouble, but because it should shake up my routine a lot.
I am excited about seeing Dave again, I can talk to him about this mental craziness that is going on. Dont expect that he can help, but at the very least we can have some interesting discussions on theory shit. I wish that the sociology program was like the engineering and nursing program here where everyone pretty much knows everyone else. It would make for good conversation that I dont get very often...
As much as I dredded it, my presentation in my sociological theory class went pretty well. I felt like I said some stupid things, but I think that is to be expected when you discuss this stuff with a guy who has taught this class for as long as I have been alive. I just wish my group had answered some stuff... it felt like the professor would ask a question... and I would sit back for a few seconds then when no one answered, I would answer then they would kinda agree with me but only changing their statement by enough that it didnt include the embarrasing stupid shit that I said. I was a little dissapointed with the girl in my group, she seemed really smart but reminded me of some people in that she was so obsessed with the text that she never thought to think outside it. What is the point of understanding if you cant argue it.
But, back to my problem with routine... this is the reason I want to become a police officer. I want to experience something new or exciting every day and you lose that if you have routine. No fun. I think between my planned uber-crazy work schedule next summer, I am going to try out some volunteering... maybe I will apply at the YMCA for their summer camp stuff, of course that wouldnt be volunteering but from what I hear about their pay it might as well be. Plus! I probably wouldn't have to pay for a membership at the YMCA to work out. Ugh, I am not looking forward to going back to that gym again after being at Westerns for another semester. The rec here is amazing, hate giving it up. The summer camp would probably (almost definitely) be full time and its pretty close to home. ANNNNND I wouldnt have to work at Qdoba. Dont get me wrong, I have had MUUUUUUUCH worse jobs than Qdoba (BK lounge, McD's and LCC to name a few) but if I believed in a 'calling' that religious people talk about a lot, I doubt that Qdoba is it. Working at the Y gets me closer to the community as an equal instead of being close to the community as a subservient (okay its not that bad). I will go talk to someone this weekend about it, I dont think it could be too hard to get a job there doing something... Dad has been working out there for like 15 years and knows pretty much everyone there and I have gone there occasionally since I was born. Think it will be a problem that I'm not a christian... I know that they are a christian organization but I don't remember it being like super preachy at the camps at all. I think Lynsey's sister worked at that camp for a few summers and I am pretty sure she is not christian...
Alright, enough with me putting off my work...
Drop me a line if you wanna meet up over this weekend.