People need a little challenge to their fantasies at home
At the moment, I find myself strangely envious of people who have really bad short-term memory loss.
I suppose it's possible to induce it, but I've no practice with memory charms and performing them randomly without practice would be an exceptionally stupid thing to do. I might find myself irrationally convinced that I'm... a germanic warrior king, or something. This, of course, would be interesting, but problematic, as insanity often is.
But it would still be really nice if I could just forget that I saw Sirius snogging Remus, and forget all that shit he said like this was all my fault, then he could forget all that shit I said about him ruining my life, and then Moony could just... forget the past several days.... THEN we'd be fine and everything would be back to normal.
And I wouldn't be so mad at him that I have trouble looking at him for more than several seconds at a time without being siezed by an almost uncontrollable urge to kick his arse for being a selfish twat who thought a good cummulative total of zero about what would be best for anyone but himself, which includes one Remus Lupin, who was a mostly innocent bystander at the onset of this altercation and proceded to make an arse of himself and also go off about how this was really my fault. People who do stupid, insensitive things do frequently like to blame other people for them.
Why couldn't Sirius have suddenly realized his unresolved feelings for Remus while I was dating Lily? Then there wouldn't be any problem. We'd all be deliriously happy and the verbal battery would be conscpicuously absent from the Marauder dynamic. And then I wouldn't have to pretend like I can just be her friend.
Everyone ELSE needs to stop having problems so I can deal with mine.
If this is how it is at the beginning of the year, I shudder to think what our workload is going to get like once NEWT's roll around. I think someone should just assume that my grades are going to continue on their current trend and just offer me an excellent job. It would really save everyone a lot of time and anguish. They wouldn't have to sift through my application or anything.
Honestly, if anyone has been considering it, I'd be all over that.