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I tried going back to the counselor a couple weeks ago and didn't get a call back and just got busy and tired and unmotivated so I ended up thinking about going back but not getting an appointment which was a terrible thing to do to myself because now I'm fucked up again and I'm getting tired and I keep going to bed at 5-6 am and sleeping during the day and this is my normal
I'm back to my normal and I'm upset and my head is so full and it feels like buzzing I just feel so heavy again if those few weeks were recovery then these few days have been relapse
Sometimes I wish I could just ask to be put on an antidepressant but I don't want to sell myself short by not going through therapy first. I want to work through my issues but I don't know if working through them is enough. When do you say that talking it through is no longer going to help I don't know man I'm just so tired and I think I want to die again lmao I'm so predictable I'm exhausted I exhaust myself