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[protestsong68]

Saturday mornings are so peaceful. I woke up at seven, kind of weird. It's nice though when you can go to bed without a single worry in your mind. I'm happy with life, even though I seem to complain a lot. I need to stop that. I guess a part of me has finally stopped caring about all the things that usually put me in a depressed mood. Thank god.

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[dangerpinsx]

Don't feel guilty. I mean if you weren't in my life it's not like I'd have tons of friends. Even with my friends last year we didn't really hang out except during the summer and prom and stuff like that. Jamie and Laura were really the only ones who ever invited me to anything. And not even out of pity. But yeah, I'm just saying, don't worry. I love you and you're my best friend too. I just want to get out of the house more. I mean if I had friends that just wanted to hang out here or hang out at their suburban house all the time doing the same things that we do when we're not hanging out then it'd still not solve my problems. At least with you I don't get bored doing that stuff. Mainly because if we ever run out of things to say... well then when we use body language :P Not to say I like you for physical reasons. I'm just saying, with other people I'm not intimate on either level, not physical or emotional and with you I'm both. So the things that would otherwise be mundane aren't. anyways I'm really tired so I'll talk to you later.

[full_on_fall]

Jenni, I understand your frustration. Well, maybe not fully because I'm not in your position, but I can see where you would be frustrated and I am sorry because I can see why this would be so hard for you. But do you really think that maybe people don't like other people because of reasons of their own, rather than what you see as them just being purely judgemental

[protestsong68]

I understand what you're saying, and I do hang out with my friends without Jordan (it's nice just spending time with my friends) when they invite me to. I think the reason I'm so frustrated is because no one really invites me to things anymore, and when we finally do get to hang out it's awkward. It's like I get this vibe that everyones disappointed in me or something, and that just makes me drift further apart from all of them. And when I said, "If they really wanted me to hang out with them, they would've made an effort to get to know Jordan so that we could all hang out." I didn't mean so that all of us could always hang out ALL the time. Just that it'd be nice if we could all do things together sometimes and not have it be awkward. One of the things I really want is just to have them get along. It's frustrating that Jordan tries so hard for them to like him and that some of them wont even give him a chance. Especially when their reasons for not liking him aren't justified at all. Most of them don't even know him, they make