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[protocalypso]

There's a lot. I'm confident and curious and positively nervous (both in terms of quality and character) and perhaps at some point soon I'll find myself suddenly at ease with the notion of narrowing down a million and one options and interests to something you can work with happily

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[morphie]

Yeah, change is pretty much inevitable

[protocalypso]

When I'm in touch with the world around me and living with an awareness of the themes and repeitions, when I pay attention to what's tugging at me and when opportunities are handed to me neatly packaged and needing only the most simple of loving, faithful acts--then indeed, change is swift and often startling.

When I'm resistent, either consciously or otherwise, I can stagnate for years, somehow convincing myself that I'm not the sole source of the pain gnawing away at my gut.

My fear almost causes panic--and the mental awareness of my irrationality sometimes fails to lessen or calm the physical manifestations of this anxiety--I know how I need to see the world (my life) in order to be comfortable, relaxed, and excited, but I don't have the energy or perhaps the inclination, to diligently counter the negative perceptions that make their way to the surface now and then

[morphie]

You?

All I ever hear when I think of you is laughter.

[protocalypso]

Darlin, I wouldn't believe it either if I didn't have to witness some really uncharacteristic *reactionary* behaviors in me as of late