i am dancing most of the time, being positive though it hurts ( Read more... )

so today was of course the day of which i saw him to tell him no. he insisted yes and tried to hand me a ring. i got my money and politely said no again. as he left i realized i had no regrets but no urge. for the first time in a long time a didn't wish him back. why? well i'll give that to ms. clarity who has divinely had a couple of meetings with ( Read more... )

i left i think i long while before my body followed and some part of him did as well. so now these random gifts given are meaningless and far too late to count. i gave it away. should i have kept it? i couldn't. he says a reminder of his apology for never treating me like i deserved but all i see is my complete lack of self-respect, martyr, and ( Read more... )

today is my very, berry, special birfday. it started off with a card that increased the amount of tears to fall on my cheeks. went to the inspirational place this morn...saw my lady friends at work, saw my lovely guide for a couple of hours with some of my family....then i caught up with this bloke, he gave me a wonderful high fidelity made CD, and ( Read more... )