sooo today was interesting. i realized that ive been lying to myself to make myself feel better and didnt even know it until today... believe me, it makes sense. i thought that whole thing was over, and that i was fine but im not. im tired of pretending everything is ok. its too stressful and tiring. im not happy. im not. everything seems to be ( Read more... )

Which Disney Princess Are You?
Snow White
You're the most beautiful in all the land but you;re stuck living in some strange company! Snow White was the original Disney's princess and was first seen in Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)

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i waited for you today, but you didnt show
i needed you today, so where did you go?
you told me to call
said youd be there
and though i havent seen you, are you still there?

why do people keep thinking im not ok?

im happy! i am wonderful. no, more than wonderful. i am spectacular. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!! i am AOK i am joyful i am marvelous. really! isnt it obvious that im ok?

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( im fine )

my brother is singing to his c.d. in the next room and he sings way off key ( Read more... )

i went to zoolights last night followed by a movie and then food ( Read more... )

i dont know how long i can keep up this act... right now im doing pretty good at it but i dont know how long it will last. my true feelings are slowly coming up, and it makes me mad because i dont want him to know.

so im obviously not at school right now. i woke up and threw up and so i called my mom who had just left and told her i was staying home cause i was sick and threw up and she said, " are you sure its not because of what happened yesterday?" and i said, i dont know mom, i really did throw up just now and she said " yeah well its probably because you ( Read more... )

turns out i hit an alltime low earlier this evening... and then i got better but then gotta love those country music awards who play songs like, " he stopped loving her today" and blah blah blah and turns out im upset once again.