Letting Go [writing]
Title: Letting Go
Focus: YunHo, YooChun
Word Count: 579
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
1. motion
Every step is a fluid motion.
2. cool
Dance has always managed to cool his body down, tame his uncontrolled thoughts.
3. young
The contents of his mind are chronologically arranged and he remembers deep into the past, when they were young.
4. last
His last memory of innocence is laying on the grass, counting stars with YooChun.
5. wrong
It was wrong of him to make that first move.
6. gentle
The kiss had been gentle, but that night something had broken wild in the both of them.
7. one
"One..."
8. thousand
The count never reached a thousand.
9. king
He had been the king of his domain.
10. learn
Who knew there was still so much left to learn?
11. blur
The nights following that first kiss come to him in a blur.
12. wait
No matter how he pleads, his mind won't wait for him to catch up, to absorb.
13. change
Now everything has changed, and they are no longer boys.
14, command
It wasn't experimenting, but taking command of one's own destiny.
15. hold
He wanted to be able to let go of what had held him.
16. need
Perhaps then there wouldn't be this sense of need.
17. vision
Vision blurring, he stops and moves from the mirror to sit down.
18. attention
The reflection in the mirror draws his attention and he turns sharply.
19. soul
Apparently his isn't the only soul in the room.
20. picture
The body that approaches his is a picture of hesitancy, nervousness.
21. fool
What a fool he was to have fallen for it the first time.
22. mad
Surely the other man knows how mad he'd driven his older bandmate, just with a simple look.
23. child
Hugging his arms around his knees like a small child, YunHo waits to see what the other has to say.
24. now
Now is the time another important decision has to be made.
25. shadow
The older boy looks away from the slender figure that approaches him, watching the shadows play on the wall.
26. goodbye
Will he be able to say goodbye for good?
27. hide
Pulling his legs closer, he hides his mouth behind his own knees.
28. fortune
Fortunately, the wait is not too long.
29. safe
But it takes a moment before he feels safe enough to look up.
30. ghost
The other man's eyes reflect a ghost of what YunHo has only known in his youth.
31. book
Back when those chocolate dotted orbs gave everything away and he could read YooChun like a book.
32. eye
The older man's eyes fall from his companion's.
33. never
Never again.
34. sing
From another practice room, voices can be heard harmonizing as other groups rehearse their singing.
35. sudden
His focus shoots away from the melodic voices to the lips now pressed against his, the sudden kiss jarring his thoughts.
36. stop
And he can't push the younger man away or get him to stop.
37. time
Time ticks by slowly.
38. wash
But the surge of heat, warmth, and need can't wash away the promise of pain.
39. torn
YunHo tears his lips away from his ex-lover's.
40. history
History won't repeat itself.
41. power
He still holds power over himself.
42. bother
This other man is only a bother to him.
43. god
God, give me strength to let go.
44. wall
He inches slowly backwards until the wall is pressed adjacent to his back.
45. naked
The naked vulnerability fades from his eyes.
46. drive
His drive and focus are back.
47. harm
No harm, no foul.
48. precious
His heart is too precious to give up again.
49. hunger
As much as he hungers for the other's touch and soft lips against his own, he knows better than to give himself so completely away.
50. believe
Love can only exist if one believes in it, and YunHo isn't so naive anymore.
Focus: YunHo, YooChun
Word Count: 579
Rating: PG
Warnings: none
1. motion
Every step is a fluid motion.
2. cool
Dance has always managed to cool his body down, tame his uncontrolled thoughts.
3. young
The contents of his mind are chronologically arranged and he remembers deep into the past, when they were young.
4. last
His last memory of innocence is laying on the grass, counting stars with YooChun.
5. wrong
It was wrong of him to make that first move.
6. gentle
The kiss had been gentle, but that night something had broken wild in the both of them.
7. one
"One..."
8. thousand
The count never reached a thousand.
9. king
He had been the king of his domain.
10. learn
Who knew there was still so much left to learn?
11. blur
The nights following that first kiss come to him in a blur.
12. wait
No matter how he pleads, his mind won't wait for him to catch up, to absorb.
13. change
Now everything has changed, and they are no longer boys.
14, command
It wasn't experimenting, but taking command of one's own destiny.
15. hold
He wanted to be able to let go of what had held him.
16. need
Perhaps then there wouldn't be this sense of need.
17. vision
Vision blurring, he stops and moves from the mirror to sit down.
18. attention
The reflection in the mirror draws his attention and he turns sharply.
19. soul
Apparently his isn't the only soul in the room.
20. picture
The body that approaches his is a picture of hesitancy, nervousness.
21. fool
What a fool he was to have fallen for it the first time.
22. mad
Surely the other man knows how mad he'd driven his older bandmate, just with a simple look.
23. child
Hugging his arms around his knees like a small child, YunHo waits to see what the other has to say.
24. now
Now is the time another important decision has to be made.
25. shadow
The older boy looks away from the slender figure that approaches him, watching the shadows play on the wall.
26. goodbye
Will he be able to say goodbye for good?
27. hide
Pulling his legs closer, he hides his mouth behind his own knees.
28. fortune
Fortunately, the wait is not too long.
29. safe
But it takes a moment before he feels safe enough to look up.
30. ghost
The other man's eyes reflect a ghost of what YunHo has only known in his youth.
31. book
Back when those chocolate dotted orbs gave everything away and he could read YooChun like a book.
32. eye
The older man's eyes fall from his companion's.
33. never
Never again.
34. sing
From another practice room, voices can be heard harmonizing as other groups rehearse their singing.
35. sudden
His focus shoots away from the melodic voices to the lips now pressed against his, the sudden kiss jarring his thoughts.
36. stop
And he can't push the younger man away or get him to stop.
37. time
Time ticks by slowly.
38. wash
But the surge of heat, warmth, and need can't wash away the promise of pain.
39. torn
YunHo tears his lips away from his ex-lover's.
40. history
History won't repeat itself.
41. power
He still holds power over himself.
42. bother
This other man is only a bother to him.
43. god
God, give me strength to let go.
44. wall
He inches slowly backwards until the wall is pressed adjacent to his back.
45. naked
The naked vulnerability fades from his eyes.
46. drive
His drive and focus are back.
47. harm
No harm, no foul.
48. precious
His heart is too precious to give up again.
49. hunger
As much as he hungers for the other's touch and soft lips against his own, he knows better than to give himself so completely away.
50. believe
Love can only exist if one believes in it, and YunHo isn't so naive anymore.