A little boy sits at the top of the slide...

[pryvtedncr]

I just don't understand why this keeps happening. Seriously, what is wrong with me? I don't understand. No matter what I do, or how I try to make changes in my life for the better, I just always come up short. It's like I'm meant to feel this way all the time... no chance of parole, no hope of escape. I put on a happy face, and for a while I truly

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[nindada]

Damn this post is so deep, and you know I feel you on it, but the first thing that came to mind after I read the second to last line was: Brokeback Mountain. If you saw it, you know why, lol =)!

Otherwise, life can just be so fucking overwhelming at times. I had one of those days Monday-Tuesday, and went rock climbing/exploring to try and work some of it out. I'll make an indepth post if I can muster the energy later.

Chin up soldier.

<3 *Candice

[pryvtedncr]

I actually saw Brokeback Mountain last night. It's a really good movie. Simple, but honest. Heath Ledger and Michelle Williams were great in it.

So, yeah, the second to the last line is kind of Jake Gyllenhal-ish... but oh, well. It's still true.

The funny thing is, watching that movie, and knowing the things that I know, it's just interesting how often we create the hell we live in. And even with knowing this, it's still so hard to get out.

Today, though, I'm feeling a little less sorry for myself. I'll find a way. Nice to have you in my corner, though.

=) Don

Donny My Love!

[sabr1ta]

Darling, I am always so sad that your entries are so morose when I always think of you as so upbeat and wonderful. Also, when you write to me, you are so INSIGHTFUL. Did you know I watched "Stella" last night before I read your last reply to me? And "Unusual Way" was actual a theme song I ad with another bf... But enough about me.

How can I help? Do I just need to find you a great guy you cn settle down with? You should come to NYC with me in the spring. Adolpho will hook you up.

I love you BUNCHES

You're wonderful

[pryvtedncr]

Thanks for the wonderful words, Sabra. That's usually the way of it, though, isn't it? We always have the best advice for other people, while our own lives seem to be falling apart at the seams. Heh.

As for me, I'm feeling a little better lately. I'm planning on moving up to NY this summer... around June-ish. I don't think I need a great guy to settle down with, though. There's a long story there that is best shared over a bottle of wine between great friends.

I need fulfillment in my life. And right now I'm on a mission to find out where that fulfillment is. Much love to you, babe. We'll talk more soon.

=) Don