Comments | pseudosky: i won't let this build up inside of me;

pseudosky

i won't let this build up inside of me;

Apr 26, 2010 17:18

I have felt sad all of today. Pessimistic, lonely, worrisome, anxious, and stressed out. It's a terrible mixture of emotions. It's quite depressing, too, to think for a moment and realize, truly, "I am not happy." Needless to say, I was in a shitty mood from that point on.

It is very dumb things that make me upset. I wasn't always like this (you ( Read more... )

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soradogoof April 26 2010, 22:00:38 UTC

D: D: D: D: D: I'm so sorry you feel this way baby. I understand why it pisses you off so much that I hang out there. I'm sorry but Bryse and Colton are probably my 2 best friends.
I can't just ditch them. In my mind things aren't going downhill. You're just going through a hard time right now. The way I feel about you isn't changing though Sammy. I love you. I truly mean that. And I've told you plenty, as long as you want me around, I will always be here. Always have a comforting word, always here for anything you want. True, it does hurt to be ignored sometimes, but that's just the way you are. But it's not all you are. You're all that matters to me. Me may be getting too attached but I don't want that to change. I know you're scared, terrified even. But I'm not going anywhere. I promise.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

pseudosky April 26 2010, 22:03:57 UTC

I know! I wasn't saying for you to ditch them. I know they're your best friends (WHAT ABOUT ME? Haha, just kidding), and I don't care if you hang out with them. I just wish their sister would go die somewhere.

Maybe this will pass soon. I really hope it does. But all of the nice things you're saying hits me like I'm a brick wall, doesn't even pass through. Bleh.

mystic_reader April 26 2010, 23:18:56 UTC

Oh hon...
*hugs*
I wish I knew of something to say to help.

pseudosky April 27 2010, 02:35:06 UTC

It's alright. Most of what anyone says doesn't help, so really, it's not a big deal. -hugs-

shesayslove April 27 2010, 04:15:53 UTC

Sammy, I will be honest, here...you said that you used to be a happy, bubbly, and bright girl who never brought anyone down. There are two things wrong with this statement of yours, and I will point them out to you because I can't do anything else for you ( ... )

shesayslove April 27 2010, 04:16:12 UTC

Being happy isn't -easy- but it's not hard, either. Somedays I think, 'this is easy', and then other days I think 'this is so hard'. But...I think it is about reaching down, sometimes. Because there are things in you that make you so happy, and maybe they are silly things like Sam Winchester or the possibility of calling me up, on any one day of your choosing, and listening to me read you random fanfiction in a strange voice. Because maybe they are silly to everyone else, but they mean so much to you, like getting on the computer at the end of every one of your days, and checking your email and getting the occasional message, or texting Your Boy, or hearing people tell you they love you when they love you, they love you, we really love you. I really love you ( ... )

pseudosky April 28 2010, 00:19:58 UTC

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shesayslove April 28 2010, 01:45:21 UTC

Anytime that you need me, I will always be here. <3 And even if you don't always think so, I will be, and I promise this so much.

I'm happy that I made you happy...sometimes, life is like this, living in these moments--, happiness is always here for us, but sometimes, it is about realizing it, it is about finding it in yourself and in other people and in other things...and when you find it, isn't it the best thing?

Suddenly, my world is even a little bit more brighter, so, it must be because of your smile. <3