Humboldt Better Get Back To Me Soon...

[psi_philosopher]

...because I'm beginning to feel like everything I do down here is cursed. I keep making the wrong decisions. (No, this is not about the job. I made the right decision there.) This is about my relationships with people

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[iliachenvaar]

*hugs. I know how you feel, some. When I think about job-hunting, I tend to see-saw between thinking it's all my fault and thinking I can't do anything at all about it. They both suck. *hugs more.

[psi_philosopher]

They do. =(

Though I would prefer for it to be my fault, I guess. I like the illusion that it is only because I did something wrong that I missed an opportunity, rather then to be rejected for something that was actually out of my control. I guess that might be weird.

And change is scary anyway. I don't know which option I'm more scared of, frankly. Either I restart my life somewhere else or I stay stuck in this crappy town and feel increasingly like a failure. Yikes.

[iliachenvaar]

I don't think it's weird. I can't decide which is worse, which I suspect is why I see-saw. Whichever one seems worse to me at the time is the one I think it is. >_Yeah, I had a freak-out about the future just before I started my senior year of college. Nearly derailed my relationship with Mike. Change is scary

[outofthisplace]

I need to meet new people, and I need to choose the right people down here. And I need to think about what I'm doing more. Ugh.
Man, do I ever hear you.

[psi_philosopher]

I seem to have this magical ability to consistently do the wrong thing in relationships. And I know I'm ridiculously exaggerating 'cause otherwise I wouldn't have any friends, but it sure feels that way sometimes.

[outofthisplace]

Yes, yes yes yes.