Intro from Cynthya/BrianKate, looking for some more community
Hello all. I'm posting here, my first time ever posting to a vampire list, in hope of finding some community. Here's my intro, here goes.
Hi all. I'm known by several names, though the most commonly used are either Cynthya, BrianKate or some combination of these. As for pronouns, go ahead and use any that apply to people.
I’m neither a man nor a woman, which puts me somewhere in the transgender spectrum. I’m also hormonally intersex, biologically between male and female and have had two puberties.
I’m pagan, of a somewhat shamanic background/path. Basically, a few years back the trans dead saved me from being murdered by haters and now in addition to live folks I help dead trans and gender-nonconforming folks; my word for it is I’m a deadworker.
O also have various spirit animals I work with, the most prominent these days being Tarantula/Spider.
I’m also hexadactyl, as in I started life with 6 toes on each foot, of which I still have five and a third on each.
I’m also a visually disabled science fiction geek who runs shadow-cast (lip-synching) musicals at conventions. I often run and act in a shadow-cast of the “Buffy the vampire slayer” musical…kinda ironic considering I’m a vampire.
I’m a psychic vampire. I don’t drink anybody’s blood. Except symbolically….as I’ve learned that in certain pre-Greek myths the severed penis of the hermaphrodite Agdistis became the first pomegranate tree, making pomegranate juice symbolic trans/intersex blood. I do occasionally use my own blood for rituals and I have on one occasion sucked my own blood….so maybe I should say “I don’t suck anybody *else’s* blood except symbolically.”
I feed off other peoples’ energy, both what is called “life-force” and emotional energy, though I don’t take it from a single donor the way some folks mat. I’ve always been extremely empathically aware of the emotions of those around me and have finally realized that I eat nits (and sometimes more) of the emotions people throw off. I also get energy from being around a gathering of people…though this gets tricky as I get overwhelmed by too many. I get energized from being around people and have been known to go from zero to damn near annoyingly cheerful in gatherings of more than medium size..
Two experiences shattered my disbelief about being a vampire. At a science fiction con right after being dumped I had a blood sugar crash and yet felt better than I had before it just by being around a bunch of people. And last year I sucked suicidal feelings right out of somebody just like something out of that movie “The Green Mile.” It messed me up for the rest of the night, and it took me hours to be able to get what I’d absorbed out of me, but the other person is doing amazingly well these days.
I’m amazed and amused that I used to be so skeptical about being a vampire. Should’ve been obvious to me all along. I never slept at night even as a kid. I stay up all night and usually only see sunrise while going to bed. I feel incredibly drained after being in the sun for long periods and get almost-“Lost Boys”-level sunburns. I love wearing capes, and I’ve got fangs (while playing a vampire in the movie “Night of the Vampires” the crew kept looking at my teeth and finally asked “dude are those custom?”.
I think I became a skeptic cause everyone who told me I was a vampire was hard to believe. Many of them had just eaten a Grateful Dead concert’s worth of acid. Others were busy trying to convince me the movie “Blair Witch Project” “is REAL footage man!” Gee, I wonder why I didn’t believe ‘em?
Now that I’m cool with being a vampire I’m looking for community. I’ve had to weed thru tons of sites that are just role-playing game sites or just didn’t seem to be what I was looking for. I have a few IRL friends who are vampires but almost all of them live halfway across the country. I live in Ann Arbor and have no idea if there are any other vampires who are open about it in Michigan. I am also not part of any kind of order or house or any of the other ways I’ve seen vampires gathered, and don’t want that kind of life, I’m just looking for an open bunch of open-minded people who I can get to0 know, and am looking both for folks online and IRL closer to me than I currently know.
Thamks,
Cynthya/BrianKate
Hi all. I'm known by several names, though the most commonly used are either Cynthya, BrianKate or some combination of these. As for pronouns, go ahead and use any that apply to people.
I’m neither a man nor a woman, which puts me somewhere in the transgender spectrum. I’m also hormonally intersex, biologically between male and female and have had two puberties.
I’m pagan, of a somewhat shamanic background/path. Basically, a few years back the trans dead saved me from being murdered by haters and now in addition to live folks I help dead trans and gender-nonconforming folks; my word for it is I’m a deadworker.
O also have various spirit animals I work with, the most prominent these days being Tarantula/Spider.
I’m also hexadactyl, as in I started life with 6 toes on each foot, of which I still have five and a third on each.
I’m also a visually disabled science fiction geek who runs shadow-cast (lip-synching) musicals at conventions. I often run and act in a shadow-cast of the “Buffy the vampire slayer” musical…kinda ironic considering I’m a vampire.
I’m a psychic vampire. I don’t drink anybody’s blood. Except symbolically….as I’ve learned that in certain pre-Greek myths the severed penis of the hermaphrodite Agdistis became the first pomegranate tree, making pomegranate juice symbolic trans/intersex blood. I do occasionally use my own blood for rituals and I have on one occasion sucked my own blood….so maybe I should say “I don’t suck anybody *else’s* blood except symbolically.”
I feed off other peoples’ energy, both what is called “life-force” and emotional energy, though I don’t take it from a single donor the way some folks mat. I’ve always been extremely empathically aware of the emotions of those around me and have finally realized that I eat nits (and sometimes more) of the emotions people throw off. I also get energy from being around a gathering of people…though this gets tricky as I get overwhelmed by too many. I get energized from being around people and have been known to go from zero to damn near annoyingly cheerful in gatherings of more than medium size..
Two experiences shattered my disbelief about being a vampire. At a science fiction con right after being dumped I had a blood sugar crash and yet felt better than I had before it just by being around a bunch of people. And last year I sucked suicidal feelings right out of somebody just like something out of that movie “The Green Mile.” It messed me up for the rest of the night, and it took me hours to be able to get what I’d absorbed out of me, but the other person is doing amazingly well these days.
I’m amazed and amused that I used to be so skeptical about being a vampire. Should’ve been obvious to me all along. I never slept at night even as a kid. I stay up all night and usually only see sunrise while going to bed. I feel incredibly drained after being in the sun for long periods and get almost-“Lost Boys”-level sunburns. I love wearing capes, and I’ve got fangs (while playing a vampire in the movie “Night of the Vampires” the crew kept looking at my teeth and finally asked “dude are those custom?”.
I think I became a skeptic cause everyone who told me I was a vampire was hard to believe. Many of them had just eaten a Grateful Dead concert’s worth of acid. Others were busy trying to convince me the movie “Blair Witch Project” “is REAL footage man!” Gee, I wonder why I didn’t believe ‘em?
Now that I’m cool with being a vampire I’m looking for community. I’ve had to weed thru tons of sites that are just role-playing game sites or just didn’t seem to be what I was looking for. I have a few IRL friends who are vampires but almost all of them live halfway across the country. I live in Ann Arbor and have no idea if there are any other vampires who are open about it in Michigan. I am also not part of any kind of order or house or any of the other ways I’ve seen vampires gathered, and don’t want that kind of life, I’m just looking for an open bunch of open-minded people who I can get to0 know, and am looking both for folks online and IRL closer to me than I currently know.
Thamks,
Cynthya/BrianKate