a huge part of me wants to let go.
then a rush of excitement embraces me at the front door.
how do you turn away effort, although you want to bite your lip down knowing he'll succumb you to his last priority sooner or later.
wait, that step already happened 15 years ago.
so what's this stage called...

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i had to help find the most recent pictures of my uncle steve today to send to p.a. so they can start working on reconstructing his face.
the only one i could find was of sophmore year when he visited....
i hate that my family is not so family oriented.
cause when things like this happen, its the only time we come together.

geez.
do something for me once.
be grateful & say thank you.
i'm not made out of money.
i can only do so much before i become listliss.

made my first drive to henderson/jackson today.

first 5 minutes within jackson limits, clay & i spot this truck in a starbucks parking lot.

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i'm so happy.
i'm so in love.


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i feel completely lost ( Read more... )

i leave for vegas in the next couple of days.
and morgan will soon be joining our family here in tn within the month.

he moves to tn, the same day i start college.

life is good.

clay came home friday night to only leave again at 2 a.m. this morning for the caribbean. i got to see him last night for a few hours before he left. we stood in my driveway hugging & crying. its a good feeling having a boyfriend who cares ( Read more... )