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[psyched_out]

oh yeah...it dawned on me that one year ago today S and i departed for spain, cashing in some of those frequent-flyer miles - what a damned difference a year makes! i loved england, i loved paris (barring the food poisoning), and i loved japan (although i don't really count those as being "vacations"), but the spanish trip was just so, i don't know

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[psyched_out]

you'd be shocked to see me now - i forget almost everything - the wife corrects me on almost all of my old false recollections - i'm getting to be an old man!

september/october 2000 was when my mind started going crazy, and it culminated in the week off i took from work, my first-ever earned vacation - and how did i spend it? staying at home, freaking out during an innocent board game night! well, there was a lot of stuff in my head that just built up to that moment, i guess...but i guess i should be happy that i got my nervous breakdown out of my system at the age of 24, and it only lasted for a long weekend...

[billings]

I've always wondered what constitutes a nervous breakdown. I've certainly been in some rough patches myself.

[psyched_out]

well, i'm sure that it can get much worse than what happened to me, but i just started to wig out a bit in late summer 2000 - 5 years down the road, i look at it as a whiny time in my life where i thought more people should acknowledge me and that my significant contributions to humanity were being slighted - it all culminated with an intoxicated me throwing my "game of life" car at phatjoe, cursing out hewhocannotbenamed (not the guitarist of the dwarves, by the way - LONG story), and drinking my arch-enemy vodka - come to think of it, i was listening to the fall while all of this happened, which surely couldn't have helped...

the next morning was possibly the worst hangover i've ever encountered, and were it not for the clearance bin at media play the depression would have probably only worsened...thankfully it happened during my vacation so i had time off to reflect, and my psychiatrist geebs heard a bunch of wacky shit from me during the time but offered some sage advice in reply - although who knows what any of it was, i have no memories of

[vertamae]

You had a nervous breakdown? Just one? I've had so many I've lost count! :)

I'm glad your life has turned all around, and for the better. I remember the Spain entries, and the photos, well. It all sounded so idyllic. I still haven't read the Japan entries, but I've recommended you to my pal Leigh, so hopefully she'll dive in and read some. And I will too, one day, this I know.

That clever bit you wrote? I don't get it at all - way over my head, but it seems like it might be very clever indeed. ;))

[psyched_out]

well, its not like my life was in shambles - but i was just being a silly 24-year-old - probably anticipating the trauma of falling out of that ever-so-desirable marketing age bracket...

wow, i'm honestly surprised that anyone would recommend my writing to others! color me bone-white with a bright shade of pink around my cheeks...

my "clever"ness? i thought it was funny to give pope john paul the nickname "it is as it was", seeing as how the last media-significant thing he did before dying was to supposedly claim "it is as it was" when he saw the passion of the christ - it fed the flames of that whole anti-semitic controversy and the vatican quickly claimed that he didn't say it or it was taken out of context or something like that...

and the catholic rodney bingenheimer comment? you remember rodney, right, "rodney on the roq", the subject of that whole mayor of the sunset strip documentary? the eternal teenage in LA who's hobnobbed with all of the superstars? i made the reference because the toledo cathedral was crammed full of

[vertamae]

Awww, I'm sure it's still very clever. But only to people who pick up on your references. One has to be careful with the pop culture references - it has to be 'popular', or else it's just cultural. :)

I saw that "Mayor of Sunset Strip" movie, but I totally forgot the guy's name already, and I certainly did not remember the tour of his house. Man, my memory for movies sucks. Or is very selective. What one person notices, another does not, I guess.

But... now that you've explained it? Hey, that's VERY clever. :D

Seriously.

Yes, I recommended your journal. Of course. It's quite good. In a culturally exclusive sort of way. Am I calling you elitist? *gasp*

[geebs]

I remember the weekend, but I can never remember the exact date. If you asked me I would have said August/Sept rather than Sept/Oct. But, obviously, you'd know best. And maybe I totally off, but I want to say you freaked out in the middle of a game of Life? That would be kinda poetic or apropos or something.

Anyways, who woulda imagined things would be the way they are now five years later? Well, I'm basically the same. Marriages, kids, who'da thunk?

[psyched_out]

y'know, i never realized the symbolism involved with that game of choice - or, like i commented above, that i was playing the fall on the stereo...

and do you remember the events leading up to that vacation? i'm sure you do, since its the only time mmv('you made me very angry!'); and likewise i'm sure - it was all because i wanted to drive up to chicago for my vacation with you coming along, and i imposed on your connections to see if your family could hook us up to stay with them for free - and now here we are, that same weekend 5 years later and you've just come back from a weekend visit to chicago! there's something funny about this time of year...

[geebs]

Yeah, I remember. Heh, I didn't want to be the one to bring up that I contributed to some of those negative feelings you were having that week. But yeah, I didn't even think about the whole fact that I was in Chicago at the time when you made this entry. How apropos!

[psyched_out]

heh, no matter what stirred me up at the time there's nobody that conjured up the negativity but myself - man, i was such a bitch!

at the reception, you should've gotten the DJ to play "danke schoen" (or however its spelled) and then you could've lip-synced "twist & shout" afterwards - all of the single girls and unrecognizable cousins would've been all over you afterward!