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Firstly;
I need to stop staying up this late. lD;;
Secondly;
I... completely forgot how much I wanted to follow that new series Moonlight when it first came out. But dammit they just played like, four episodes on SciFi and I'm like... god...
Mick St. John inspires me and my vamps like.... unbelievably. Because dammit, there are vamps like monsters in that show. For the blood and the kill and the fear and-- granted, Mick is to Moonlight!vamps as Louis is to the Interview!vamps, but... but that's my Carson. ;; I hate to say it sometimes because dammit, I know those vampires who fight themselves and their instincts and refuse to kill -- whatever -- are all too common and people probably get so bloody tired of them but...
That's what he is.
And I think that's why I keep wondering about him. He's... changed so much over the past almost-two-years now that I think I keep waiting for him to change all the way. Ditch the conflict inside, not restrain himself as far as he does, become some remorseless not-quite-monster and he... doesn't. He never will.
He's still my gentleman. He's always going to be the romantic, the one who wants to defend people and defend his loved ones, and no matter how much he comes to terms with himself... he's always going to refrain a little. To try to not hurt people. And especially not those he loves. I... I swear I love the series Moonlight because there's snark, joking, laughter, a vampire LIVING and trying his absolute best. But he'll never let his monster out. Not intentionally. Never, really.
Neither will Carson.
...I actually, honestly, would not have him any other way. Heh.
I love my vampire, my Carson, just the way he is. <3<3<3<3
/rant
I need to stop staying up this late. lD;;
Secondly;
I... completely forgot how much I wanted to follow that new series Moonlight when it first came out. But dammit they just played like, four episodes on SciFi and I'm like... god...
Mick St. John inspires me and my vamps like.... unbelievably. Because dammit, there are vamps like monsters in that show. For the blood and the kill and the fear and-- granted, Mick is to Moonlight!vamps as Louis is to the Interview!vamps, but... but that's my Carson. ;; I hate to say it sometimes because dammit, I know those vampires who fight themselves and their instincts and refuse to kill -- whatever -- are all too common and people probably get so bloody tired of them but...
That's what he is.
And I think that's why I keep wondering about him. He's... changed so much over the past almost-two-years now that I think I keep waiting for him to change all the way. Ditch the conflict inside, not restrain himself as far as he does, become some remorseless not-quite-monster and he... doesn't. He never will.
He's still my gentleman. He's always going to be the romantic, the one who wants to defend people and defend his loved ones, and no matter how much he comes to terms with himself... he's always going to refrain a little. To try to not hurt people. And especially not those he loves. I... I swear I love the series Moonlight because there's snark, joking, laughter, a vampire LIVING and trying his absolute best. But he'll never let his monster out. Not intentionally. Never, really.
Neither will Carson.
...I actually, honestly, would not have him any other way. Heh.
I love my vampire, my Carson, just the way he is. <3<3<3<3
/rant