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[psycho_biotch]

Tonight is the night it hit me hard that I am getting old and acting more of an adult. We were just about to go to Legends, but I couldn't find myself to go. We have been having problems getting our life together, and wasn't the responsible thing to do. Then it hit me hard, I am not as wild and crazy as I use to be. I am scared that one day I will

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[grimepoch]

Honestly, I refuse to give up that part of myself. I did once, and now I know that for me, it's not what I wanted. I think growing up is really knowing how to be responsibly, but it doesn't mean having to give up things that are done by younger people.

But then again, I am a very insane person I am beginning to believe, WAY TOO MUCH ENERGY!

[psycho_biotch]

See, I used to be that kind of person, but last night kinda killed it.

[meowmix13]

I, too, felt like I had out-lived my childhood. Too much behind me and too much to do. That was 1994.

I lived a boring life and did what I was supposed to, then I realized that I was smothering and now I try to keep a death grip on some childishness.

Some days, after working particularly hard, or after particularly bad events - I can feel myself folding up and drying out inside again but I just try to slap myself and force life and vitality back in.

[psycho_biotch]

I feel your pain. With the trials that life has chosen for me these past months, I wish I could hold onto some of my childishness, but I think I can't till my daughter comes back. She teaches how to be young again. I think no, looking back. I really should have gone out, cause now I am so stressed, and haven't been out to do anything in so long. Feeling like a prisoner and somebody stuck in quick sand here. I wanna go out tomorrow, but Jason is working so its out of the picture. He works Thursdays as well. Well we also don't have transportation and limited to where we can go. Its a long walk to Cary lol.