So I completely told Suicide Girls to fuck off. That bitch said it was a requirement to do nudes. Im sorry..and no offense to the models....BUT...Im a professional model, I already have a fan base and a reputation so I will not degrade myself by doing lowbrow "modeling", in the full buff for fucking a pathetic amount of $300. Sorry but my body is ( Read more... )

Last night when I checked my mail at myspace, I had four, yes FOUR messages from SuicideGirls.com begging me to be a suicide girl. I've never really looked at the site but I know there is some nude stuff and I dont know that you HAVE to do nude,but I made the cut and they've already contacted a photographer for me. You guys..this all happened in ( Read more... )

Valentines day went pretty well.Poor Erick had to work even though it was his birthday.Today, he got a new job.He'll be making a lot more money and he'll get commission.He'll be selling cars. Hooray! My photo shoot is next weekend. I thought it would be this week but Joe has a lot of personal things going on, so I sorta figured it would be the ( Read more... )

It's too early to be up!!! I didn't get home this morning until 3:00am;Erick had to be up @ 5:30am. I didn't get a whole lot of sleep because I was having one of my spells of paranoia and bad anxiety. I kept hearing things and it kept me from getting any sleep. I've had a bad stomach ache all morning from being anxious over nothing.When Erick gets ( Read more... )

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So I actually had a lot of fun last night.My friend Damien showed up to the Breakfast Club,and I met this awesome girl named Bonnie and we're going to be hanging out soon. I also met this guy and girl and I dont remember their names, I know the girls name was Kim. Well anywho she's having a Morrissey and Smiths party that Erick and I are going to. ( Read more... )

I felt like making an entry where I actually talked about feelings I have going on in my life right now.I dont see this entry as calling anyone out or making people upset;though if this entry does have that effect,then I'm not sorry because if you find how you treat others offensive,then you only have yourself to be upset with ( Read more... )

So not working is awesome!I've met new photographers, and quit possibly might be getting a huge deal..which I wont discuss because I should find out an answer this week and dont want to jinx it. My birthday is next Tuesday on the 7th! I'll be 24..boo Im old.Oh, but on Thursday I will be @ the Breakfast Club in Charlotte,NC and if you guys could ( Read more... )

So I put in my two week notice at CVS. Im so happy! I cant wait to be out of that place for good.Im just going to find a quiet job at a small boutique that doesnt get very busy and only stays open until 6pm, closed on Sundays and holidays. I know I wont make very much but thats fine.If I find something better than that ,that I'll like then I'll do ( Read more... )

The last several months instead of just normally despising my job, I've actually full on been mentally, emotionally, and physically effected by it.Im so tired when I get home that I just fall asleep, so I've put on weight because I have no energy to exercise.They have me working day, night, weekend, holiday, and every day around whatever holiday it ( Read more... )