Still here

[psychogranny]

Two weeks? It seems like more than that! Just came on to say I'm still alive. I have hardly even been online these past two weeks. Then just to check my mail. Not even a chance to reply to most. Things have just been incredibly chaotic-worrying about my mother, med changes, housing, trying to plan around them, and organize visits with Chelsea

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[justpapabear]

Hey! Your journal is still active! Understand life getting chaotic. Sends most of us for a spin. Was really hoping that things would return to the advancement that had been going on before the relapse. Seeing Chelsea and Leah have to be big things to look forward to. We miss talking to you too.

[psychogranny]

I'm not sure what you mean about the advancement before the relapse. Are you talking about my relationship with my mother or about things being chaotic? God's helping me with the chaotic part of it. It's just so ridiculously confusing, with so many things going on at once, all overlapping each other, it's totally beyond my own power to deal with the stress. So I'm having to go day by day, trying to remember that He has everything under control and I have to leave it to Him.

As far as my mother goes, I'm really concerned about her. Her entire immediate family has gotten dementia other than her. My grandfather was taken care of by my Aunt Elsie. By the end, he thought she was his sister and they were back in Czechoslovakia. Then my Aunt Julie took care of Elsie when she got it. My aunt Mamie was next. All three of them have passed away. Now Julie, who lives by herself in the house where they grew up, in a terrible neighborhood (it was out in the country on the edge of town when they were little) in Detroit, with nobody to

[justpapabear]

I meant you had talked about seeing your mother for a good visit, then going back a few weeks later and it was like you had gone back 3 years in your relationship with her.

Dementia is a scary thing to go through for both the person who has it and the person taking care of them. Actually I think it causes more concern for those who take care of them because the person with dementia doesn't really remember what happened. Lets pray that God makes away for her to get to assisted living without her having to break a hip or something to accomplish that.