Lonely

[psychokitten7]

Right now, feeling a tear trickle unexpectedly down my cheek, right now it the hardest time for me. Saturday night, and I spent an empty morning and $63.00 buying khakis, and I have no plans for tonight, and no one to call, and nothing to do. Homework to not do before me, empty email in box, knowing you're a phone call away, knowing you're so close

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Busy

[andolini]

what if he was busy . . . maybe you wouldn't feel so bad that he coudln't answer his phone, but he still would . . .
Andolini

Re: Busy

[psychokitten7]

The point isn't whether he would answer, or want to answer. The point is that I've gotten so far into "afraid" that I don't even dare call anymore, because of that ever present "what if..." and the prospect of still more pain.

I guess this is a pretty vain entry, but it isn't about him. It's about me, what I'm feeling and what I'm fearing.

~Lisa