i want to kill myself.

[psykokandy]

It's 6:11 a.m. I have to be up at 7:45 so I can leave at 8:30 to be downtown by 9:00 in order to be on time for this training I volunteered to take

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[anonymous]

*hugs* Insomnia is awful.

My sister and brother both had really bad reactions to medication, and I know it takes time to find one that's right for you.

I like to think of depression like a common cold; it just has to run it's course. And meanwhile, the same way you would stay in bed and drink plenty of liquids to deal with a cold, you have to find ways to help yourself cope with depression, like re-watching a favourite movie, or listening to music that always cheers you up.

I hope you feel better soon; and remember that a lot of us would be quite unhappy if you were no longer in our lives.

[spinningtoofast]

By the way, the above comment was me, not a stalker.

[psykokandy]

Stalkers aren't so fun, hey :)

Thanks for the comment :) I thought the one I was on was okay, but my doctor doesn't.. I think I'll set her straight when I see her again 'case I feel so off now.

And sorry, I should know not to joke about killing myself - I'm not suicidal at all, so no need to worry there. Thank you, though.

PS. I agree that depression is a lot like an illness. A doctor described it to me like diabetes - for some people, it's something you'll always have and not be able to totally cure, but it's something you'll be able to control with the right medication & lifestyle.

[bareegeesher]

just deep breaths kiddo----and think about every uncle aschot joke i've ever delivered to inspire some kinda happiness

[psykokandy]

HAHAHAHAHA uncle ashcot. God, you're hilarious. Come to Edmonton, please :)

[devilgirly]

*hugs* Not sleeping makes me want to kill myself too.

But after you've slept a bit everything seems much better & less melodramatic, promise!

Hope you can get a good night's sleep soon! when I'm desperate I take a few codeine at once *ahem* naughty but makes you feel pleasantly sleepy :/

[psykokandy]

?Thanks :)

Man, I can't get codeine in Canada without a prescription. Can you get it without one in Australia? I was so surprised when I just handed it to me for cramps when I was in England. Ahem, anyway. I've been being a bit naughty and drinking a bit before bed to try to get to sleep - sometimes it works, but this is how Richey Manic started on the path to alcoholism, so it's not good!!

[devilgirly]

In Aus you can get low dose codeine over the counter, but higher dose codeine is prescription only (& is still not a very high dose!). Yeah i wish it were like the UK, where you can get liquid codeine over the counter - but it's probably a good thing as I would then be horribly (psychologically) addicted! hehe ;P

Well 1 glass of alcohol a day is actually good for you, so I wouldn't be too concerned! & both alcohol & codeine must be much better than sleeping tablets, that's nasty nasty highly addictive (& in my case, hallucinatory) stuff! :/

[shystreet]

PRAGYA ADD MY NEW JOURNAL! GODDAMNIT! Also, I guess you haven't gotten my last two emails and/or you're ignoring me! :(

[psykokandy]

sorrrreeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! i've had these killer headaches and haven't been checking lj much!!!!! but i did respond to your last email (the one a couple of weeks ago), you doofus!!! and i can definitely go to engerland this summah!!!!!!!!!!!

[shystreet]

:(

How come you're not updating so much? I want to know how the new job is going! And maybe my mcgill email will work better than stupid gmail!

[psykokandy]

this is super quiiiiiick 'cause i have a massive headache AGAIN, but it's 'cause i have these huge headaches after work and when i'm not working, i'm just super bummed! i should still make the time to write you though. it's not that it's a burden or anything, it's just that i just lay aroud and play alchemy/watch tv or something stupid like that! i will write tomorow or the day after though... i haven't mailed you or shaina :( ghhhhhhh. love you so so so so much and miss you loads. :(