wow

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when a month-long lust fest is held in higher regard than a long-term meaningful relationship,

you realize that all is truly lost.

lookin back, i kinda wish i had the courage to off myself back when i still had the chance. now i wait for the day when life is actually worth living.

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[spinning_hubcap]

Is that directed at me?

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yea, why?

[six_15_bassist]

rofl...

but anyways, im excited for you pat!!!keep dreaming, and it will be a reality soon enough, and congrats on school and your new job. things are looking up eh?
same here, school and job, mad gay:(

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yeah it's a bit overwhelming, but i'm semi-happy. really i'm just content, i guess, until i can take things to the next level.

[six_15_bassist]

im glad to hear that. you deserve to be content, after everything you've been going through, content is good for a change.

[pube]

yea i know.. it's a weird feeling to be honest.

to be overwhelmingly happy for over a year to have nothing at all is a big step down. even though i'm chasing my dream, i still feel a huge chunk missing from my life. maybe it's lame for me to still feel that way, but i don't see it ending anytime soon.

if you and john ever break up i am gonna kick both your asses.