yes its true! Bab 8
I really know Inoo’s love that not only for me, he shared it becomes two parts for me and for him.
Just looked him through his eyes, it described clearly. And succeeded made me breathless whenever I saw it. No air around me.
Though I still disbelief is he really love me or just toyed me.
This pain in my chest’s getting bigger everytime I think about him. Sadly in hour, minute and second each of time I think of him.
time passed so fast, too fast.
Then I reminded my old pain. Everything about him, everything that made me forgot about him since he left me. he’s gone when I turned my age to six.
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One day before my birthday~
I sent him an invitation card for coming to my birthday.
“Keichan, tomorrow is my birthday, please come okay?! I”ll be waiting!^^V”
Exactly I remembered it, I waited all day till my party ended. He never came. I wondered why he didn’t appear in my party. I just thought positive things that maybe he had a business and couldn’t gave me any explainations.
Soon in the tomorrow morning I came to his house, but I found nothing. No one there, there’s an empty big house without signs of life without his beautiful smile greeted and waved to me everytime I visited his big house. But still I thought he just went to somewhere for temporarily, maybe in 1-2 days he”ll come back. Even I didn’t have a courage to asked my mom where’d he go. I just afraid..affraid to accepted reality.
I waited for him everyday..
Day one~he still didn’t appear, and I thought he will be back in day two. I stil optimized he will came back for sure.
Day two~I brought two yellow balloons..i knew Inoo chan would like them he loved balloons so much. But same like previous day, he hadn’t showed up yet.
Day three~I brought 3 balloons but this time the colors are pink, I knew he really love pink, and I thought maybe yesterday he didn’t come back because im so egoist because those color of ballons is is my favourite one not him. So I changed my mind at this time. But still I just waited in front of his gate not got any signs that he would came back.
Day four~I brought 4 balloons, and all are pinks. When he came I would to tell him that the number of those balloons is number how many days I waited for him. And after that I would whacked his head and said:” why you didn’t come to my birthday party?!” and I hope he would say:” sorry Hikachan..i went for four days to give you a special gift..here..” I closed my eyes imagined that my fantasy in my brain will came true, and I will be the happiest boy in the world. But still like an idiot I stood up under the tree in front of his door. I was worried.
Day five~ I still waiting..our friends came with me, they wanna know too whats the reason I never played again with them, cause I chose to stood uo and sat under the tree. Waited for him. And I still brought balloons but 5 this time. But unfortunately they’re not patient. And said cruelest words.
“Ne Hikaru..Inoochan is gone okay?? See?? In 5 days he never appeared..how come you still waiting?? Ohh come on..! it will be fun if you just come with us for play..right?!” and they laughed hardly.
“I wont play again with you guys..if he hasn’t appear yet..okay?? just go then..” I left them after said that and..
“idiot! He will never come back ..baaakaaa~~” in seconds I placed a fist on his face. I fought with him.
Day six~my mom seemed wanted to tell me something, I looked her face so worried. She really know what I’ve done to my friend yesterday and why almost a week I brought pink balloons. But she still silent. I didn’t want to ask why. My head’s so dizzy..still I waited..till I fell asleep under that big tree in front of his gate’s house. I opened my eyes and the evening is coming..he still didn’t appear. Can I still waiting..i asked for my self.
Day seven~I still came to his house. Stood and sat alternately. Hope he will came back in this long weekend. The evening came too fast. Around me was getting blured. I saw a figure I knew. Looks like my mom. He took me on my wrist. And suddenly grabbed me to came into her arms.
She hugged so tight. I almost couldn’t breath.
“mom..where’s Inoochan go??” finally I asked that, I gulped. I Wanted to closed my ears.
“he came back to his town son…he never comes to here again..lets go home..” I couldn’t say anything. Speechless..i followed herstep to came to my home, and she looked at me so helplessly. She putted her forehead to mine.
“Oh my God!! You’re so hot! Hikaru..oh My..!” I unconscious.
At least 3 days I couldn’t woke up from my bed, and maybe I couldn’t awake from my dream too.
“yokatta..you’re btter now Hikaru..you got fever baby..” he rubbed my hair smoothly.
“you called Inoo’s name when you fevered..he’s gone..??” he kissed my forehead and rubbed my hair again.
“who’s Inoo mom??” I asked her innocently because really I didn’t know, I just remembered anything exception for name Inoo. I saw her expression’s so shocked and pale, and her tears fell down to her cheeks. She cried hardly. Sobbed.
“oh My God..im so sorry..sorry Hikaru..” she sobbed. I felt bad when I saw she cried like that. But I didn’t know what should I do..i didn’t know whats the matter.
“mom..why you cry?? did I do a mistake??” I wiped her tears slowly, but her tears fell down again swiftly.
“no..you dont..”she hugged me too tight and made me feel her pain but I didn’t know what is it. I was confused.
I never knew that I ever forgot all about Inoochan about us..
us?? is the word suits for my story..?? we never made such a deal for together from began.
And I never thought I could erased all memories. How could I forgot?? I wondered..maybe my brain and my heart decide theirself..for killing my pain.
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“nightmare..” I opened my eyes slowly looked at the roof os my bedroom. My cheeks feels wet. My eyes stinged.
“I cried??” I looked my shadow in the mirror. Found my eyes are red. I watered them with ice water I worried that Inoo and others would notice it.
“biippp..!!!” my cellphone rang and vibrated I looked it and my mom’s name there on screen.
“oh mom! I miss you!!” I half of yelled at her. I knew that she smiled there.
“haha..miss you too my baby! How’s there?? How’s Kei?” is it me..or mom’s instinct a bit creepy.
“ah..good..! hey you should ask my condition first right?!!” I protested, complained to her, a little jealous of course.
“I know you’re so fine! Send my regard to him ok?? Jya! Chuuu!!!” she hung up the phone.
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“hey Guys!! Meals are ready!! Breakfast time!!” I heared Inoo’s voice from dining room. I downed to there and found he already there with fragrant cuisine. Yabu, Takaki and Daiki followed me form behind.
“sorry im pass! I should go to campus now! I”ll eat later Kei sorry!” I just sipped a cup tea and left them behind hastily.
“oh yeah~Hikaru’s back to school~~” Daiki’s voice made me resentful. I turned my body again to approached that penguin and smacked him.
“ok I go guys..!” I waved to Inoo and grinned so wide to chibi, and ignored Yabu.
“take care Hikaru..!” Takaki waved to me with his left hand and his another hand was bust stroking Dai’s head.
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I went to campus to collect my holiday assigntments. Takai and Daiki are not same major with me.
“biipp!!” I found Inoo’s name on my screen phone, he sent a message.
“go back soon..^^” he wrote. In first place I didn’t want to reply it. But somehow in my heart I want to tell something to him.
“can we meet after i go from my campus??? Meet me in front of gate of your old house ok??”
“ok..” he replied me in few minutes.
I ran as fast as I could. If there’s no next day to meet him again.
“you’re late..” he already there stood up under that big tree. I felt déjà vu.
“im not late..you’re too fast…” I kneeled down to him felt exhausted after ran about 500m. I took a breath for a while and stood up, I grasped his wrist. And drawed him to entered that big house. He stopped me for a moment, his expression changed.
“ why you take me here?? You know I hate that house!” I ignored him and continued to dragged him, and we arrive in garden. The garden still so beautiful with pretty flowers filled in it.
“you hate it because of me??” I started conversation and responsed him, I felt he hate it because of me.
“yup! You know it?! Great! I”ll go then!”
“wait! I waited for you! I waited for you!” I wanted to screamed out to make sure he would heared it clearly.
“whats?! You waited?? Don’t joke ok?! The one waited here is me..hellooo???” he paused his step and turned to me. his eyes began glistened.
“im honest Kei! I was waiting for you for seven days! You know..seven days..i always waited for you from morning to eveining in front of the gate, under the tree, brought saome balloons and stood and sat like and idiot!” really I couldn’t controlled my self. If I have time machine I would showed it to him.
“whats?! But..i waited for at your birthday..you never appeared..how..how..i sent you a letter Hikaru..” his eyes now full of tears, swiftly fell down to those pink cheeks.
“I sent you an invitation..you read it??” I asked him back, I want touched and wiped his teard but he stepped back refused me.
“I didn’t..” he covered his eyes and sobbed. I wanna hugged him but I just froze. Couldn’t do anything.
“me too..” he looked at me maybe wanna searching that my words is lie or not.
“Keichan..dont cry..its a fate..maybe God just tested us right??” I took him on wrist and pulled him into my arms, hugged him tightly. I couldn’t say anything..i want him to got it just with a hug.
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We just silent, didn’t make any conversation we just enjoyed the view of beautiful garden, the garden still didn’t change at all..still same.
“Kei..wanna play that game??” I grabbed him on wrist and pulled him to stood up.
“hide and seek??” his eyes red, he rubbed them softly.
“can we??” I smiled tenderly.
“I wanna be a seeker now..can i??” he just nodded and stood behind the tree and covered my eyes with my hand and counting 1-10.
“don’t peek ok?” he warned me from behind, I grinned.
“ok..Kei..done??” I asked him, and idiotly he replied me.
“hai..look for me Hikachan..” he said it and I pretty sure where he would hide..he always hide there.
“found ya!” I saw his fragile shoulders. He backed me. and I wrapped my arms around him.
“you always can find me Hikaru..” he grinned and hugged me back.
“because you always hide here..as usual..idiot..” I whacked him.
“I did it for purpose..i want you find me easily..hhehe” he sticked his tounge out.
“baka..” I found no words. I felt too hapy heared his reason. I wanna cried as well.
“you still remembered anything Hikaru..im afraid you forgot..” he sat down to the grass in his hideing place. I followed him.
“not really..i mean..i just reminded all when you came back here..” I looked away didn’t dare to looked his eyes.
“ehh??!!” he shocked for sure. But I couldn’t say any explaination.
“yup..its weird right??” he just silent and turned his face when I looked at him, he placed his head on my shoulder and I could smell his sweetness scent.
“cruel..” he sighed and closed his eyes. Im not sure he just closed or fell asleep.
“im sorry..” I closed my eyes too.
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There is no pretty garden without flowere grew there.
There is no tears without sadness and happiness.
There is no song without beautiful voice.
There is no love without you..or there is no you without me??
Im so ridiculous indeed. And I said its no hope.
My mom ever said it..when my birthday would coming up.
My mom said:”Hikaru did you already find a love??”
Me said:”its you mom..”
My mom said:”besides me??”
Me said: “ehm no one till now..”
My mom said:”you will find it soon my son..”
Me said:”really??”
My mom said:”yup there is no doubt about it..”
Me said:”ok..the matter is time right??”
My mom said:”yes..”
I wondered why mom is so great..is she paranormal?? And I wanna say to her that I love her and I fond him, thanks so much mom..I Love You..correct: I Love You and Him.
“rinnggg!!” I felt his cellphone rang and vibrate brutally. He opened his eyes and yabu’s name there.
“Yes..Kou..i”ll be back..”his hand held mine so tight..as he responsed his called, as my heart broken into million pieces..