i got rid of everything that reminded me of you today. i couldn't throw it away but at least it's out of my eyesight, too bad I couldn't erase it from my memory. and i erased you from my cell phone. baby steps people, baby steps.

that hurt. a lot. i miss my mom. and i hate you.

calling my mom and leaving her a message, what a pathetic feeble attempt....

so J is pissed i haven't said anything in a while, so here you go J! I miss you ( Read more... )

i cant believe what i just helped my best friend do. it just goes to show that not everything is the way it seems. is it weird that i want what she has and she wants what i have? hmmmm new year, new me? i think that sounds pretty good. and im going to start it off with dropping one of my biggest flaws of 2005, i dont care how depressed i get, it's ( Read more... )

so i know this shouldn't be bothering me as much as it is because i should be used to it but it's really getting to me today. i need to realize that he doesn't care about me (my life, my family, my friends, my problems etc) as i do for him. and im only talking friendship here. if he were a true friend he would have acted completely different. it's ( Read more... )

selfish asshole. i cant even put into words how hurt i am because of his actions. i cant do this anymore.

J, thank you for being the only friend that called me today to see how my mom was.

it's funny all the memories one scent can bring back into your mind. someone just walked by me with familar cologne and memories flooded my brain. and they were really good memories...hmmm that was a good time in my life ( Read more... )

I'm trying I really am. But it's hard. Really hard. and it sucks ( Read more... )