It's so good to hear from you. Though I'm sad you're having a hard time. *hugs*
I so, so, SO relate to your struggles with avoidance, and with depression. And loneliness. It fucking sucks, doesn't it? Sometimes I marvel how other people go about their lives, knowing they must have their own struggles, but... they seem so lucky?
Oh man... I haven't seen Ultron either, though I want to. I feel like I won't let myself get really invested in the Bucky/Cap because the films won't acknowledge it enough to my satisfaction, and I'll be disappointed. But argh, what a great pairing?? I have a tense relationship with ongoing properties, lol.
I'm actually off rn to see my psychiatrist and check on my own brain-med mix. I hope your support system keeps you safe and cared-for. Take care, okay? I hope you'll continue to post and keep us updated.
Thanks <3 It's good (though sad) to know I'm not alone. I've been put into a CBT group on top of everything else (which is a good thing - having *something* to do every day stops the worst of the misery) and it was really weird to be surrounded by people who were similar to me (in terms of brain crap, at least).
I did see Ultron a couple of weeks after it's release - newkate reassured me that it wouldn't set off any ARGH moments. We both agree that Steve should have been nowhere near it BECAUSE BUCKY.
Haven't seen you for years (and missed hearing about you tbh) I used to enjoy reading about your life and doings. Really sorry that you have been having a bad couple of years. Brain crap sucks!! Like Motodraconis, I feel that you may well be on the long hard road in the right direction. Can't offer anything useful, except to say that you are not alone. You do matter to us. And hang in there!!! Sends virtual hugs.
I don't have much to say, really, and this is a terribly belated comment because I haven't been on LJ much recently.
But I've been where you are, sort of, and I am proud of you for taking the steps for self-care that you are taking. It's HARD. And it's terrifying and it's exhausting. And I can't make it better, but I really wish there were something -- anything -- I could do to help.
So, you know, if you ever want fluffy Marvel fic, hit me up. Or someone to talk to about knitting, or depression, or meds, or whatever. I'm here. I'm just across an ocean and not very eloquent at the moment.
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I so, so, SO relate to your struggles with avoidance, and with depression. And loneliness. It fucking sucks, doesn't it? Sometimes I marvel how other people go about their lives, knowing they must have their own struggles, but... they seem so lucky?
Oh man... I haven't seen Ultron either, though I want to. I feel like I won't let myself get really invested in the Bucky/Cap because the films won't acknowledge it enough to my satisfaction, and I'll be disappointed. But argh, what a great pairing?? I have a tense relationship with ongoing properties, lol.
I'm actually off rn to see my psychiatrist and check on my own brain-med mix. I hope your support system keeps you safe and cared-for. Take care, okay? I hope you'll continue to post and keep us updated.
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I did see Ultron a couple of weeks after it's release - newkate reassured me that it wouldn't set off any ARGH moments. We both agree that Steve should have been nowhere near it BECAUSE BUCKY.
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You are most certainly not alone, these tough times have stamped on so many of my chums, and me. Hang in there!
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Really sorry that you have been having a bad couple of years. Brain crap sucks!! Like Motodraconis, I feel that you may well be on the long hard road in the right direction.
Can't offer anything useful, except to say that you are not alone. You do matter to us. And hang in there!!! Sends virtual hugs.
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But I've been where you are, sort of, and I am proud of you for taking the steps for self-care that you are taking. It's HARD. And it's terrifying and it's exhausting. And I can't make it better, but I really wish there were something -- anything -- I could do to help.
So, you know, if you ever want fluffy Marvel fic, hit me up. Or someone to talk to about knitting, or depression, or meds, or whatever. I'm here. I'm just across an ocean and not very eloquent at the moment.
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