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How could I have been so stupid?
He - I really thought that he l - but, obviously not. He used me. I - everyone was right about him. Eloise, and they all said to be careful. But I thought that, maybe - I don't know. That it would be different. It felt different. But I guess it wasn't. Not to him.
So why do I still want him? I know that he's a jerk. I should want better, but...
I don't.
And it hurts.
I'm so stupid. I let him - for the first - No one can know. It's so humiliating.
I'm so stupid.
I'm going to go cry again, now.
Mayzie.
He - I really thought that he l - but, obviously not. He used me. I - everyone was right about him. Eloise, and they all said to be careful. But I thought that, maybe - I don't know. That it would be different. It felt different. But I guess it wasn't. Not to him.
So why do I still want him? I know that he's a jerk. I should want better, but...
I don't.
And it hurts.
I'm so stupid. I let him - for the first - No one can know. It's so humiliating.
I'm so stupid.
I'm going to go cry again, now.
Mayzie.