supress this, mother fucker.

[punk_gye]

i'm not really sure who i am right now. these days. i drink almost every night. but i took 4 nights off in a row and felt really good about it. it let me feel that i'm ok without drinking. that i can still have fun and be me without it.. not that i did much. i dont do much these days. i've become a recluse. but what am i feeling right now?

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[dead_albert]

I know exactly how you feel. Suppression of feeling makes it much easier to deal with the shit that may make us feel unsavory. As I've noticed, none of us really seem to have a desire to go out and do things anymore. Part of it I think is the fact that our bills have eclipsed us, and catching up sucks. I think the other aspect [for you and I anyway] is work. I've never experienced a job that's so draining and unfulfilling. Even when I worked at Express, I was pulling 50 - 55 hours a week, but it didn't bother me. I had pride in the company and the job, and so improving the store didn't seem like that big of a deal. Spencer's seems to be something else though, a totally draining monster of a job. The amount of time and effort we put into that company only furthers the lack of identity that we have for ourselves, since it's such a downer.

[notpunk]

call or email me if you ever wanna hang out.

[ilovezack______]

*hug*
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