my cousins, amira & maddie, are staying with us at the moment.
oh joy.
they're cool; but get annoying.

i think id like to get to chloe's asap.
i miss those kids too much.
its weird how dependant i am of my friends.
i need them to make me smile.
sad aye.

i havent taken my medication in a week or so.new record. im doing ok. though i have some weird ( Read more... )

somebody write this in reply to my entry about dale."hunni you seriously fall in love too fast, too easy ( Read more... )

you want to know who my boyfriend is?

+ blonde
+ blue eyes
+ 17
+ gorgeous
+ short-ish
+ amazing
+ loveable
+ silly
+ funny
+ skinny
+ hot
+ muscles
+ awesome
+ spiffy
+ makes me laugh
+ makes me smile
+ makes me HAPPY

his name?

joshua keith coburn.

hes my best friend.
my boyfriend.
my gay lover.

only a handful of people have any idea about this.
and they're the people im the closest to.
but now anybody that reads this will know.
ok?

i miss dale.
i love dale.
and i swear to whatever higher power there is that i would do anything to have him back.
to call him mine.
to hold him.
to hug him.
to kiss him.
to love him.
anythingand he knows it ( Read more... )

the large, bold parts are relevant.
the rest; ignore.

i really wanna call you,
but i know that it's not right.
i probably shouldn't tell you,
but i dreamt of you last night.
i guess im not prepared to say
Goodbye. so long, farewell, I won't be seeing you again ( Read more... )

go on; fall in love; i dare you;

be happy;
they'll break you apart;

then cry;
cry your little heart out.

got to school, ran into sean straight away who had clearly just woken up. went to class. laughed. read some ew stuff about protitutes & some guythat bashed his 2 year old son. ew ( Read more... )

i wrote this.
just before.

hidden behind a mask ( Read more... )

to my ex boyfriend whom im still in love with ::
this hurts.

to my ex boyfriend whom im still pissed off at ::
exactly how many girls did you cheat on me with?

p.s. in reply to everything you wrote in that message and in reply to everything that happened during our 'relationship'..

its ok, i forgive you.

its disturbing.
its annoying.
its disgusting.
its sad.
its depressing.
its unnatural.
its sickening.

thats what it is.
to know that its been 8 months.
8 months and im still addicted.
still stuck.
still missing you.
still craving you.
still obsessed.
still in love.