i'm finding it very hard to understand people...they're just way too complicated. i'd love to be able to tell stories of good times i've had with such and such...or doing this with so and so...but hey..there are now moments b/c i don't have a firm enough grasp on what it is that i need to do to have those relationships with people ( Read more... )

i don't kno why i'm even bothering to write in this thing b/c no one reads it anyways....i mean..this is just like a serious waste of time...Xanga is better anyways...but idk...i just...like my Lj though...i really want to be able to update and then check back later to see that someone cared and read what i had to say and commented...but that ( Read more... )

Boy...I saw her today ( Read more... )

i love choices.

today i went to Pecan's with Molly,Storm,Anna,and Kate...it was very interesting. i think i have a problem with communicating with people and i don't kno why either. i think i just think that whatever i say will end up sounding stupid. so i just don't say anything at all.and the really funny part is that i'm a really opinionated ( Read more... )

haha! i'm not tired. it's 12:06 a.m and i'm not fucking tired. i'm supposed to be leaving on saturday to go to cali to spend christmas. (woo-hoo!) and i won't be coming back until break is over...and maybe a little after.

i'm going to bed.

fuck caleb.just fuckin fuck his ass.we broke up in like....august.but i still can't get over him for some reason. he broke up with me on my answering machine on my cell phone!?!? what the hell is that?? and on top of that he ignores me. i can't deal with people like that OMG. really.

FUCK U.

well....i have a boyfriend now...

his name is Caleb and we've been going out now for about 4 or 5 days....

i don't want to put too much on this...but i'm just hoping that he cares about me...

b/c i need someone to...

*so cut my wrists and black my eyes
so i can fall asleep tonight...or die..*

bored as hell...no..

bored to death...

somebody kill me...

oh...and they were Zantrex_3 or something like that...obviously i survived...

i'm so pathetic...i try so hard to commmit to something and for once better my life...but everything turns to hell and i end up half killing myself for something i kno will never be mine...so i just have to learn to let go ( Read more... )

it's been a while ppl...and i really have nothing to say...

*her eyes bleed as her heart cries....*