been a while

[punkrock_babe]

not alot has been happening ive just been in between relationships and hookups and im still getting nowhere with the people i wanna be with soo in a nutshell my life sux....while my friends are away in maine for spring break im going to be home working my ass off doing different meaningless jobs to get a little money im also planning to finally get

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[anonymous]

Amanda, i know how you feel about my offer and im determined to change your mind...ive been thinking alot aobut you lately and i really want to try this..i know about the whole age thing but your going to be 18 in a year and we wont do anyhting illegal...alright..umm call me if you change your mind.

mark

[punkrock_babe]

my answer to your "offer" had nothing to do with how i feel about you ,you know that right? its just a tad bit wierd..i mean for the last 4 years weve been kinda like brother and sister with a few questionable acts in between..and i dont want to lose you as my best friend and you are and you always have been....its like this: weve tried the whole going out thing before and it ended up just getting me or you and everyone weve ever dated pissed off...im not sure why but our friends have major issues with me and you going out...call it crazy but i guess thats what they are...and im also not sure how that will effect you and joey's friendship and i dont want you guys to risk your friendship because of me....trust me im not worth it...you may think i am but ask any of my exes i look good on paper but just like every law i disapoint alot of people...frankly im a bitch..and im not sure how to get around that....and it only seems to surface when i really like someone or im really jealous...soo its inevitable...i know we went out before but

[jojoformojo]

im sorry i never wanted you to feel how you do trust me this wasnt my intension i do love you and im sorry about lying to you and im sorry i ever stooped that low..please forgive me..call me later id call you but im not sure if you want to talk to me..soo im sorry..and i love you and i was stupid..

[punkrock_babe]

dont be sorry..but you owe me big you have no idea...i forgive you cuz im just that kind of person but i have alot of thinking to do about if me and you can ever go back to how we were....and i doubt that but we can still be friends and hang out but like i told you on the phone im stuck between and rock and hard spot soo dotn rush things please im begging you not to rush things and not get pissed off if things dont work out how you planned..alright this is turning out to be another long ass comment call me alter if you want to talk alright..

bye