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[punkrockgirl_69]

i have come to the sad realization that this so called life that i have been living, really is as pathetic as it seems...and all in all nothing is what is seems...

as hard as i try to be sane, it just can't be done...i'm just crazy and fucked up in the head and nothing can fix that...

i thought i could make it all go away, i thought i could fix it

Comments

[blaueminxaugen]

You are positively one of the most negative people I have encountered in my life. Your will to float and drown in your misory is quite pathetic. You have so much potential, but you don't let yourself go far, because you constantly fuck yourself along the way. One example: The Alcohol. It really doesn't do anything good for you. It is a temporary solution to a permanet problem. You may be "crazy"...but what is "crazy"? Who's to say someone with a great job and a wonderful family, isn't "crazy?" What if you are normal? Stop finding excuses to dismiss the way YOU choose to run your life. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and blaming everyone else, and everything for the reasons the way things go. You have the power. You need to find a way to be centered. You're an incredible girl sometimes...but that's the problem. SOMETIMES. What about all the time?

[punkrockgirl_69]

for one, you really do NOT know me, and you sure as fuck do NOT know what is happening in my life and who are you to say anything about my life when you run your life like a fucking immature teenager...

for another thing i do NOT where you get off thinking that you can criticize what anyone has to say about ones feelings at any given moment in time...

you of all people are NOT the best living example of how one should run or execute their lifestyle...

you do NOT know how to listen or truly be a good friend and i know this personally; you have alot of growing up to do before you can realize what life is really about...

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[blaueminxaugen]

You know what's sad? This was all written because you were offended, and ran off emotion and a feeling, rather than logic. You obviously can-not take critism, and instead you feel the need to attack me back. If those are your feelings, then to you, they are right, and I will not disagree. But I know myself well and I know how I live my life...and I'm pretty sure I'm a lot more alert and admitted to the things I do than you are. As opposed to the rest of the population, I don't pretend to be oblivious to the mistakes I MAKE. The way I have chosen to live. There is always room for change, and that's what I think you forget with me and obviously yousrelf. A fucking immature teenager huh? I guess a fucking "immature teenager" is so immature they had the balls to admit themselves into a hospital because they realized and acknowledged they had a problem and wanted to fix it. I guess an "immature teenager" stopped having sex because they realized this whole it meant nothing to them if they weren't in love. I guess an "immature teenager"

[squishythingz]

you know for one becca u cant go around making statements at people and not understand why they are fighting back. and for u person i do not know i will not offer u crytasism i will offer some advice. but at no time will i claim to completely adhear to my own advice 100% of the time

[punkrockgirl_69]

thank you for the thoughtful words of insight... i do appreciate another persons point of view on things... i also do know that things will get better but i suppose that this is just a trying time for me and i'm venting a little... i suppose that i write what i am feeling at that given moment and really i don't think that in any case it is wrong to do so....

this year has definately been an uphill battle for me, but i do realize that i must keep plugging away at it, i have no alternative but to do so... its just that i feel lost and i dont know how to find myself quite yet, but i am looking....