rant, ugh, so mad.
Uggggh,
I'm so pissed off right now. In such a pissy mood.
First things first, they raised the price of our parking at work to $75. We work on the coast of maine. On the total outskirts of a small town. There is plenty of land. No parking garages, no on street parkign type thing. Just a lot of kids having to park. So what do they do. THey charge the employees to park. We don't have a choice, we have to come to work. And its not like there is public transportation out here we can take. We are out at hte beach. Nothing comes over here. Bull shit, fuckin' bull shit.
So that's in the back of my mind.
2nd, I've just been really snippy with kirsitna lately. Not sure why, but she's just been really pissing me off. Its probably not her, its me just taking little things personally, but holy shit. I just want to get away from my life, I mean it all for a bit. (Ha, and as I write this an email just came from her).
3rd, my grandmother is not doing much better. SHe's home now and my aunt decided to move in with her with her two kids and two dogs. I went to see her last night for a half an hour and I almost shot someone. That place is a freakin' zoo. Cartoons blaring, dogs running around, and my memere just stuck in the middle. I immediately called my dad when I got home and told him something had to change......... now. She's just going to get worse there. My brain hurt, I was stressed out and ready to pop after only 30 minutes. I don't know how the hell she is handling day after day. I said I will help, I will do what I can, but I also have two jobs. My photography takes up my nights. I am a wedding phtoographer. I have weddings to shoot, and right now its busy and I have a lot to do.
*takes a sip of chamomile tea to calm myself*
This morning I wake up and when I was about to leave i realized one of hte cats got sick or had diarreah all over hte kitchen. It was everywhere and I was late for work. And the damned freakin' mop and vac thing I just bought wasn't freakin' working. Ugh.
And my phone, my phone is broken. It keeps on randomly shutting off. And, and cingular freakin' changed it so that you only hit the 7 key ONCE and it deletes the message. I've already lost 3 messages. And my phone doesn't always keep the "missed calls" list, so I have no idea who called me.
UUUGUGUGUGUUGUGUGUGUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Okay, that's it. No one tonight. But I have to go to the hosptial. I already promised my memere I'd take her to the hosptial. Ugh. Fuck this all. There just ins't enough time to get it all done. My head hurts.
I want to cry. To go to my camp, lie down on hte futon and cry.
I'm sure I'll be better by tomorrow. And for sure by Saturday, its just today and last night, - not good days.
- me.
I'm so pissed off right now. In such a pissy mood.
First things first, they raised the price of our parking at work to $75. We work on the coast of maine. On the total outskirts of a small town. There is plenty of land. No parking garages, no on street parkign type thing. Just a lot of kids having to park. So what do they do. THey charge the employees to park. We don't have a choice, we have to come to work. And its not like there is public transportation out here we can take. We are out at hte beach. Nothing comes over here. Bull shit, fuckin' bull shit.
So that's in the back of my mind.
2nd, I've just been really snippy with kirsitna lately. Not sure why, but she's just been really pissing me off. Its probably not her, its me just taking little things personally, but holy shit. I just want to get away from my life, I mean it all for a bit. (Ha, and as I write this an email just came from her).
3rd, my grandmother is not doing much better. SHe's home now and my aunt decided to move in with her with her two kids and two dogs. I went to see her last night for a half an hour and I almost shot someone. That place is a freakin' zoo. Cartoons blaring, dogs running around, and my memere just stuck in the middle. I immediately called my dad when I got home and told him something had to change......... now. She's just going to get worse there. My brain hurt, I was stressed out and ready to pop after only 30 minutes. I don't know how the hell she is handling day after day. I said I will help, I will do what I can, but I also have two jobs. My photography takes up my nights. I am a wedding phtoographer. I have weddings to shoot, and right now its busy and I have a lot to do.
*takes a sip of chamomile tea to calm myself*
This morning I wake up and when I was about to leave i realized one of hte cats got sick or had diarreah all over hte kitchen. It was everywhere and I was late for work. And the damned freakin' mop and vac thing I just bought wasn't freakin' working. Ugh.
And my phone, my phone is broken. It keeps on randomly shutting off. And, and cingular freakin' changed it so that you only hit the 7 key ONCE and it deletes the message. I've already lost 3 messages. And my phone doesn't always keep the "missed calls" list, so I have no idea who called me.
UUUGUGUGUGUUGUGUGUGUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Okay, that's it. No one tonight. But I have to go to the hosptial. I already promised my memere I'd take her to the hosptial. Ugh. Fuck this all. There just ins't enough time to get it all done. My head hurts.
I want to cry. To go to my camp, lie down on hte futon and cry.
I'm sure I'll be better by tomorrow. And for sure by Saturday, its just today and last night, - not good days.
- me.