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[punkster04]

Walter came over tonight. We had a good time. We watched the movie Crash. It was good. A little weird. Lordy...I have this empty feeling in my stomach. I love Walter, I really do. But I miss him and I hate myself. I hate myself becaue I get mad at him and others for the most stupid reasons in the world. I hate myself because of who I used to be:

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[plumtreekisses]

i used to be like that...filled with rage...still am a little bit. but there came a time for me when i asked why am i not letting myself live? why does everyone else get the satisfaction of being happy when i dont? and then i let go a little bit, stopped holding on to my anger and being mad at everything going wrong...let everything just be. it was hard at first, and sometimes i do get vvv angry and nearly explode. but the best thing to do is take astep back and think, is it worth getting angry over? take adeep breath and think so what? so what?...ew..ive come across all psychotherapist-like lol. but yeah, things will get better, cause when i was in situations i thought i'd never make it out and that i was doomed, but there is hope...
...i better stop, i'm kinda scaring myself ...^_^
*hugs*

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[punkster04]

Thanks so much for giving me some hope. I'll try to do that...just think about if the stuff I'm angry over is really worth it or not.
(Hugs!)