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[purekismet]

I am not moving. The first time I typed that it took me 5 minutes to do it and I had to close my eyes. I unfortunatly lost my last entry I had typed about this and so I have to do it again

Comments

[xmrxwitiak]

Christina, dont worry. This was the first opportunity that arose, and sometimes we cant take our firsts. As much as I know you want to and you need to get out, this was something will prepare you for the next opportunity that comes along, you will know EXACTLY what you need to look for, and it anything at all, you know that if something works out where one day you can move to Arizona or anywhere you want you are hirable and you WILL get a job that will allow everything to work out for you. Just promise me christina, and I know you will but I want it to be an honest promise, that you didnt make this decision based on ANYTHING your dad said.

I LOVE YOU!!!! you need to enjoy that bubbly feeling, even if its bad butterflies in the stomach (lord knows ive had a lot of those lately) take them for what they are, emotions that make you human, and prove more than bleeding that you are alive!

[purekismet]

I honestly swear that this was decided only by my own thoughts and not my Dad's. Trust me I fought him so hard in the begining that when it was me seeing things not fall into place (and none of the things he was worried about) I was fighting myself on it because I thought maybe it was me falling into my Dad's thoughts. But I then took a much much closer look and realized that it wasn't that at all.
But now that I'm not going Dad is much happier. lol. "I knew it wasn't right." "Yeah, ok Dad."

[psychogranny]

Oh, Christina, I can't tell you how sorry I am. I know how disappointed you must be. But it just wasn't the right time. There's another job out there that's suited perfectly for you, and when the time comes, everything WILL fall into place. God sometimes allow things to happen that we don't understand, not because He's left us or wants to hurt us, but just the opposite. He sees the whole picture, and there must have been something about the job, or coming to Phoenix that could have been bad or hurtful for you, physically or emotionally. He only wants the best for us, so regardless of how disappointing it is in the short term, later you'll be able to look back on this and see that He was taking care of you. I know that doesn't help the hurt in the meantime, though. =(

*REALLY REALLY REALLY BIG HUGS*

[purekismet]

Awh Thank you so much. Those were very helpful words. I'm still upset but thank you.. I am not sure what it was about what you said but they were the most comforting words anyone has given me throughout this whole ordeal. ::HUGE HUGS BACK::