I don't want to think anymore and I can't seem to escape the things that seem to just kill me the most. It's like they just don't quit and it's like, no matter how hard I try...it doesn't ever seem to make a difference. People are ruining things without even trying, and that's not really alright with me. It's everywhere, in every conversation in ( Read more... )

You know that feeling when things just are... alright... not good, not bad.. just alright? I think that's how I feel right now. I just called my bestfriend right now...no answer... I'm fairly bored right now. I had a long night at work and I'm still tired and sore from this weekend's tournament. Some things really are going great though, like ( Read more... )

This is for Arin ( Read more... )

Once I lived this life where everything was really hard. But thinking about it... I have it really good. I guess you have to step outside and look at yourself to really truly understand and appreciate all the things that seem so insignificant but are truly blessings. Like true friends...those are things you can't replace. And the people that ( Read more... )

So, it's only February and I'm sick of being a senior already. I don't understand all the nonsense. I've never wanted to be out of the valley so bad in my life. Things just aren't right for me here. And the fact that my schedule this year really blows doesn't help at all. My government teacher is a freak who's class is a complete joke... ( Read more... )

I must say I complain too much about my semi-charmed life. It's really not all that bad. I just seem to sometimes make something out of nothing and think that my whole life is going to end.. but.. life continues to go on. I just wish now that it would speed up a little to the end of May. And for my wonderful friends that care so much and just ( Read more... )

I had a bad night last night. I'm not mad, just sad I guess. I wish my sister was here so I could complain to her and she'd say something terribly smart to try to cheer me up. It never really worked... i just miss it. I love Valentines day and I'm so excited about it... even after all of the drama. I have the most beautiful valentine and I'm so ( Read more... )

I'm so upset right now it's umimaginable. I don't think I've ever been so disappointed in my friends in my life. What Steph wrote about friends in high school is true. I don't think they exist. If you going tell me you're going to go through with something.. fucking do it. Don't flake out last minute... I'm so upset.

I played tennis today for the first time in about two and a half weeks and it went so great. I had a blast! I got sunburned too which was kinda cute to me. I miss my best friend Arin. She's so beautiful and doesn't even know it. She's the type of girl that can walk into a room and everyone will stop and stare at her. I have always admired her ( Read more... )

So, I haven't written in a long time... it's just been a long week. I just hope next week goes by as quickly. Everything right now seems to be perfect in my life.... hopefully it all continues to go so smoothly. I want it to be warm already. Especially since I'm going to San Marcos next week to see my babe. I'm so so excited. tami