resigning gladly & calmly
I didn't think you could kill yourself from working so much, but if you do it long enough, you'll hurt going down that path. I've grown extremely rigid and I associate majority of my stress with the pharmacy I'm currently employed with, how often I put myself into overdrive. I realize I pushed too far when I pulled muscles trying to relax ... Yes, it's gotten that bad. The first time it happened, I thought it was a fluke because I was at a massage parlor. The second time it occurred, I dove into water and resurfaced with a stiff shoulder. The knots in my body have gotten too tight to untangle.
When I started this journey, Mom's most repeated words of advice were, "do your best." While I've been bringing my skills up 110%, there isn't much left for me. As much effort I put into establishing myself, there's always someone to say I'm not doing the "right" thing, but I push through. I owe myself to rest and recover from all of these experiences, but my schedule has been so constricting that it hasn't allowed any time for my own leisure. I resist walking out of the office so I can finish on a good note. I just hope the person they decided to hire next has an easier time adjusting than I did.
Even though my time is (and always has been) limited, I'm glad we've all made our acquaintances. I know this is the "overlap" my boss discussed previously, but I didn't think it would happen so soon. We briefly talked about it and never set an official date, but now my time is up at the end of the month. My coworkers act like I was supposed to stay longer? but I know our boss can't afford to keep me there. I don't want to stick around, because I feel I'm overstaying my welcome at that point. There's too many people working in the same room. There's many things I've seen and endured with them, but I guess that's all the more reason to move onto bigger things. There's more waiting for me.
The new hire started this week and eventually takes over my spot in the pharmacy. As pensive as I am to socialize with new people, I'm happy I met their candidate. She has stood next to me while I complete tasks around the office, but I didn't realize she looked to me as a mentor until my name was the one she would call. Now I know I've reached a certain skill level when I make the job look easy, but realistically it's not. I feel our pharmacist doesn't want me tutoring their new staff, but what am I suppose to do? Even though I'll only get to work beside her until the end of the month, I'm happy to pass on what I've learned. I just wish this person and the rest of this team the best of luck.