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[puristlove]

I realized today, how very bitter I am right now, and how that's been coloring things from my worldview to my interactions with people. If you've been offended by my bitterness, if its seeped out and hurt people, I apologize. It will pass.

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[theta_waves]

I think being honest with your moods and feelings virtually (i.e. not just posting when you are happy and things are going well all the time..) makes the experience 'richer' for others who know you and like you as friends but have never met you before in person...humans are multi-faceted creatures we all know this, but being prideful animals we also like to be seen in the best of lights...but once we let down our guards, I think this is a gift to others, they in turn, can finally be in a position of supporting you and feeling that they may have something to offer from their knowledge to help you through a difficult time, perhaps as you have helped them in times past...it is just a wonderful interaction that takes place once you let the flow run freely...your bitterness does not offend...if anything it makes you more beautiful...for we all harbour bitterness and bad times once and awhile and most intelligent and open people can relate and like to know they 'are not alone

[puristlove]

I don't mind being open with my hurt, but I wanted to apologize for letting bitterness and anger sneak into other conversations and replies. I'm closeminded when I'm angry, and can be a little sharp. I don't like being like that, because then my hurt hurts other people.

[pseudonymous]

Chill out, babe.

First of all, your journal is the place for catharsis. Being one of the people who's allowed to see that catharsis is a good thing - that's what friends do.

Second of all, bitterness is natural, especially when you're going through something difficult. Anyone who really minds probably isn't around - and if they are, that's their deal, not yours. You need to go through what you need to go through.

Finally, you're a solid guy, and it sucks that you're going through this. I'm sorry that you are, and I wish there were more I could do to help. (Context is a bitch.) Just keep going, buddy. You know that ultimately it'll be ok.

[puristlove]

It's not so much the catharsis in the journal that I was apologizing for... though, because this isn't just a private diary, and is a forum for communication I do try to make it MORE than just a place for me to vent... but anyway, when I'm bitter, that tends to seep into all aspects of my relationships with other people, and while it may be natural, I don't like to be the cause of more pain. I refuse to be an instrument of causality, reacting to pain by generating more. :)