got a little more time.....

[purple49erfan]

twenty more minutes but that is about it. it is just hard for the fact that i was actually getting somewhere with my feelings and i lost it with the two minute mark. maybe i will get it back again. who knows. fuck... this fucking sucks. now this is where my anger is hitting home. this is wehre i hate life. where i cant stand to be here or anywhere

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Take a few deep breaths

[anonymous]

You are doing fine. Twice now you have opened up more than I've ever seen you do it...especially on here. Don't rush into it...you will lose yourself. Now...the past is the past, you can't change any of it. Don't waste your time by trying to get back to it because you will waste all sorts of time and energy on things and events you cannot change. Loneliness is a scary place to be...especially when one is very depressed and lost with the direction of their life as well. Negative events will continue to occur so long as you continue to think negatively. And remember, everything happens for a reason...you are Jaime weren't meant to be. you know this, and I know this. regardless of your love for him, he was and is not the right person for you. He abused you and no one deserves that in a relationship. You keep saying things are your fault...maybe some are but the doc cutting you is inexperience on his behalf...it's not like you decided you'd get your back cut upon delivery. Whatever you've experienced in life, like the abuse from jaime, is

Re: Take a few deep breaths

[purple49erfan]

thanks mere. i really do appreciate it. i am trying. i really am but it is so hard for me right now. i am not sure if i can do it. but maybe i will.......