Life as you live it!

[purple_86]

Right now I am lost at how to feel, why does life have to through loops at me. I am trying to be as strong as I can...But my heart can only take so much. I don't think I realized that I cared so much for this individual as I do. I am trying to be responsible and realize what we have decided is the right thing but I can't convince my heart...but I

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[dreamweaver224]

hey hunny, did you ever think of not being just friends. it seems to me like you want to be with him, and would love seeing him, and never making the deal to be just friends would have never made you this upset. Maybe if when he came up you didn't hold yourself back all the way, things would go to where you want them. Don't be sad. I want you to be happy!! ~Ali

[purple_86]

Ali...you don't know how good you are to me!! I thank you for being there when it seems that no one else is!! You really are a wonderful friend!! I thank you for your insite...he is still coming up..as a friend..which is ok...maybe I could get to see sometime...we still need to have that girls night!!! I again thank you!! You are one strong human being and it is hard to believe that you are only 18/19 years old!! Miss ya!!

P.S it was good seeing u at shaw's the other day!!

[dreamweaver224]

yes we do!! maybe when jen's mom gets all better, we could do something at her house. i currently do not have a car. it is pretty much all my sister's although i pay the gas and insurance!! i'm looking for a place to live sort of cuz i can't deal with my dad any more!!!!!!! i have monday-wednesday off this week coming. no plans yet. i think i will be starting a new job soon though.
cell is 349-6924.

love, ali

And now I gotta crawl back

[cadetandyklein]

The biggest mistake I made was thinking that I could find what I have with you close to home. What I 'deserve' is irrelevent. What I have had already, what kept me from going over the side on Sea Term, the person I call my 'best friend'...that's what matters to me. I'm so angry with myself to have hurt you so bad, especially after what I told you on the phone this afternoon. I had no idea you felt this way, I should have checked this a lot sooner.

Call me when you are free, we should talk. Hang in there. ::huge hug:: that hug'll be real in a few days.

Andy