update
So I started a meme hoping it would get me into posting regularly again, and then what happened? My laptop died. I could have continued the meme because I had my sister's laptop, but then I missed one day and one missed day turned into the next ... apparently they weren't all that interesting to people anyway.
Where I am now? I don't have a fucking clue. I went to Victoria to work for my mum and step-dad for three months, which meant I got some cash stowed away, but I'd also planned to use it to get a job in Canberra. That didn't work out because my laptop broke and I had to send it out--luckily it was still under warranty. They couldn't fix it, so they sent me a brand-new one with same or better specs. Which last about a month and a half. And then died. So I had to send it out again. Hence the lack of meme. Good thing my sister wanted to get a netbook, because that meant I could by her laptop as a backup, and I got a HDD to keep things copied, because wtf, computers. At least I was lucky to not have to pay much.
Anyway, all the computer breakages meant that I didn't get up the motivation to leave Adelaide, and when I finally did it turned out I couldn't stay at my godfather's after all. And since jobs there are so hard to get right now, he basically said to stay in Adelaide and find a job I can transfer over.
The problem with that? I have little to no job experience. A degree in communications isn't much good when most of the jobs out there which I can even consider applying to are either retail or receptionist and they keep asking for a minimum of a years' experience. How can I get experience without a job, guys, thanks. I do have that editing qualification, but it's hard to break into that when no one advertises for editing jobs and the local newspapers don't actually have pages where they say how to apply for a job at them. What I need to do is get off my ass and do a walk-around handing out my resume to all and sundry.
In other news it feels like roleplay has eaten my life to the point where I feel almost obliged to stay at my computer all day to be in contact with people, because otherwise I had no one to talk to and thanks to time-zones daytime is when people are on anyway. I still love it, don't get me wrong, but I hate that I can't do things halfway; either I invest in it all the way to the end or, when I try to divide my attention, nothing gets done. I miss fic-writing. I miss SPPf. I miss a lot of things I have no idea how to get back into. I do have a chaptered fic I've written six chapters plus a prologue for, with the seventh near done, but the story as a whole is not even halfway done so I'm not sure if I should risk posting it anyway or not. That and it's R-rated so I'd need to get it approved by modly peoples, and aren't people busy at this time of year? Though I've lately been considering posting my fics to LJ, despite the whole 'chapters are too long for LJ entries' thing.
Let's not even get into my current lingering idea that I'm not currently worth much anyway so who'd even notice or care if I came back to the fanfic scene. Fuck depression.
What I need to do is start getting out every day. Go to a cafe, write, take a bunch of CV copies and give them out to stores. What I also need is to figure out how to not eat the same things every day so I wouldn't rather go hungry than eat that damned thing again and omg why is making food so hard?
This update brought to you by ... I was gonna say 'Pur is so whiny' but I really hate it when people are all self-loathing at themselves as if they're not allowed to rant. =/ So this update is brought to you by Pur currently kinda hating life instead.
Where I am now? I don't have a fucking clue. I went to Victoria to work for my mum and step-dad for three months, which meant I got some cash stowed away, but I'd also planned to use it to get a job in Canberra. That didn't work out because my laptop broke and I had to send it out--luckily it was still under warranty. They couldn't fix it, so they sent me a brand-new one with same or better specs. Which last about a month and a half. And then died. So I had to send it out again. Hence the lack of meme. Good thing my sister wanted to get a netbook, because that meant I could by her laptop as a backup, and I got a HDD to keep things copied, because wtf, computers. At least I was lucky to not have to pay much.
Anyway, all the computer breakages meant that I didn't get up the motivation to leave Adelaide, and when I finally did it turned out I couldn't stay at my godfather's after all. And since jobs there are so hard to get right now, he basically said to stay in Adelaide and find a job I can transfer over.
The problem with that? I have little to no job experience. A degree in communications isn't much good when most of the jobs out there which I can even consider applying to are either retail or receptionist and they keep asking for a minimum of a years' experience. How can I get experience without a job, guys, thanks. I do have that editing qualification, but it's hard to break into that when no one advertises for editing jobs and the local newspapers don't actually have pages where they say how to apply for a job at them. What I need to do is get off my ass and do a walk-around handing out my resume to all and sundry.
In other news it feels like roleplay has eaten my life to the point where I feel almost obliged to stay at my computer all day to be in contact with people, because otherwise I had no one to talk to and thanks to time-zones daytime is when people are on anyway. I still love it, don't get me wrong, but I hate that I can't do things halfway; either I invest in it all the way to the end or, when I try to divide my attention, nothing gets done. I miss fic-writing. I miss SPPf. I miss a lot of things I have no idea how to get back into. I do have a chaptered fic I've written six chapters plus a prologue for, with the seventh near done, but the story as a whole is not even halfway done so I'm not sure if I should risk posting it anyway or not. That and it's R-rated so I'd need to get it approved by modly peoples, and aren't people busy at this time of year? Though I've lately been considering posting my fics to LJ, despite the whole 'chapters are too long for LJ entries' thing.
Let's not even get into my current lingering idea that I'm not currently worth much anyway so who'd even notice or care if I came back to the fanfic scene. Fuck depression.
What I need to do is start getting out every day. Go to a cafe, write, take a bunch of CV copies and give them out to stores. What I also need is to figure out how to not eat the same things every day so I wouldn't rather go hungry than eat that damned thing again and omg why is making food so hard?
This update brought to you by ... I was gonna say 'Pur is so whiny' but I really hate it when people are all self-loathing at themselves as if they're not allowed to rant. =/ So this update is brought to you by Pur currently kinda hating life instead.