Ayah
HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY AYAH!!
he bought some crayons for body painting and he was our first guinea pig
yes, ayah took this pic, WHILE driving
My ayah is the best. Back then when I was small I didn't even wanna go close to my dad. Cos he was still in UK most of the time when I was small. But I somehow turned into daddy's girl. With all the shit in my life, at least I know my dad loves me. Even though he's hard on me, I know he won't intentionally hurt me. Whenever I'm with him I turn into a little girl again, and I can cry as much as I want in front of him, even if I can't tell him the actual reasons behind me breaking down to pieces. And even if he's awkward and won't know what to do when I cry, he'll just sit there quietly, and later when he thought I was sleeping, he would come and kiss my forehead.
Ayah, I'm sorry for everything I've done, more so for the things I've done behind your back, when you gave such trust to me, when you give me all that I want, and when you always try to give me all that I want. I'm sorry for being a screw up, and not the daughter you want me to grow up into.
I love you so so so so so so so so so much, may you live a long and happy life. Amin.