I keep dreaming that this was just some nightmare my mind made up... that one day he's just going to come home and it will all be ok... It's setting in that this is for real this time and the pain only gets worse....
I know... it's easier to forget when I'm not home, near him or listening to a break up song (which my iPod loves to play lately)
I feel myself going through so many emotions in a day that I am losing it... I get mad at him, then I get mad at myself... i cry too much.... oddly enough I have been happy a few times... thinking about what I had... but that's normally followed by crying... Oh and at work forget it... lol i snap on everyone... sometimes for the littlest things...
I actually took my 2 weeks back and instead am taking a week off to clear my mind (aka job hunt) that was a nice idea from an old coworker...
so far today I have been dealing pretty well, but there were a few times at work that I needed to sit and calm myself down.
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I feel myself going through so many emotions in a day that I am losing it... I get mad at him, then I get mad at myself... i cry too much.... oddly enough I have been happy a few times... thinking about what I had... but that's normally followed by crying... Oh and at work forget it... lol i snap on everyone... sometimes for the littlest things...
I actually took my 2 weeks back and instead am taking a week off to clear my mind (aka job hunt) that was a nice idea from an old coworker...
so far today I have been dealing pretty well, but there were a few times at work that I needed to sit and calm myself down.
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