I'm still bored. soaps are over, lifetime movie is unfulfilling, not enough drama, crazy eh? I wish i had money, enough money to travel and do the things i want to do. The Dalai Lama is coming to new york in september. I got an invitation so to speak, to sit in the front center section for his teaching in central park, then to his other days of ( Read more... )

i've been so up and down the past week. i'll get super happi, then something will switch and i'll be all defensive and angry. i don't know why i'm feeling so unsettled. it's frustrating when you don't know why your brain is fucking with you ( Read more... )

i'm sooooo excited, we're getting a little siamese kitten. she's pretty creamy color w/ an adorable face and blue eyes. Her ears are bigger than her whole body!!! erik and i get to pick her up on sunday! I think i'm gonna freak out at the pet store and buy so much stuff. I hope she's not too scared of roy ( Read more... )

What is going on , cmon now, what the fuck? i feel like a beached whale.. i feel like the hunchback, shunned from the public. i truly hate ugly icky feeling days. that's okay, i'll just sit and stew in my ugly-dom, whatever that is ( Read more... )

Last night i had crazy dreams, as always. i dreampt that my dad found out i was dating and told me i couldn't go out that night.. grounded? i was like i don't even live at home.. but damn he was pissed. then i was splunking underneath a church? what? maybe that was from watching jacob's ladder. I'm not quite sure i knew what was goin on, erik ( Read more... )

i'm going to try to sleep now, but i don't think i can, you've completely encompassed my mind...

i don't know what to do with myself. my brain tells me to just to calm down, and take it easy... so i'm trying. it's just that what i see before me is so amazing and irresistable. i'm trying to keep my feelings down to a minimum... but i'm freaking out! every part of me is enraptured by u. taking things slowly is safe, and logical? that's the way ( Read more... )

last night was fucked. jessica and haven cannot be in a block radius (they live a bit out of a block radius) of eachother. haven has taken to attacking jessica for whatever reason. i understand if something bothers u, but do you have to be so mean to that person all the time? I love both of them, and it sucks 'cause i don't know what to do. I ( Read more... )

so i've been tossing things around in my head/heart for a bit. i think that i'm slowly understanding how i feel. for a bit i thought i knew what i wanted, then i took a step back, and stopped thinking about what i wanted to be, and looked at what really was. it's not what i thought, it's not what i thought i wanted ( Read more... )

my thingy said i was ralph, picking my nose and stuff, but i couldn't get the picture to work. bogus.
it says:

Your dumb. other than sticking things in your nose and eating crayons, you don't accomplish much during a typical day. you have no friends 'cause u're too dumb to talk to.

wow, that rules.