My job and future
Tomorrow will be 6 months since my mom's death. I miss her so much. So many memories of her. I can't wait to see her. It's a good thing she doesn't have to see what this economy is turning into and that I lost my job. I know she would be incredibly worried about my future and she would probably be mad at Kevin for not having a job.
June 30 is my last day working at Troy School District. I was calm at first and then I got angry. I didn't want to go to work. I really liked that job, but God has something else planned for me. Yesterday was really rough at work. I came in with an attitude of not wanting to work and being mad at the world. One of my bosses told me that I had shit in my urinal that I had to clean up. I was so pissed off. To top it off....two of my toilets were plugged up and I had to snake one out. Also I couldn't find the screw driver that I use to manually flush the urinals that are suppose to flush automatically, but don't. I was slamming doors and at one point I was swearing out loud. I really shouldn't be doing that in a public school, but I had had it. Then I realized that I won't be working here after June 30th and none of this matters. There is nothing I can do about not having my job anymore and I should just enjoy each day knowing I won't have to pick shit up with my gloved hands (so disgusting) anymore. I don't know if I will get the dispatcher job. I don't know if I should go back to school. I don't know if I should go sell everything and go spread the word of Jesus. I don't know what my future holds. What I do know is that it's up to God what my future is and that's ok. It's his gig. He's in control. He is amazing. I have so much to thank him for. You are so wonderful, my Lord Jesus. I love you so very much!
June 30 is my last day working at Troy School District. I was calm at first and then I got angry. I didn't want to go to work. I really liked that job, but God has something else planned for me. Yesterday was really rough at work. I came in with an attitude of not wanting to work and being mad at the world. One of my bosses told me that I had shit in my urinal that I had to clean up. I was so pissed off. To top it off....two of my toilets were plugged up and I had to snake one out. Also I couldn't find the screw driver that I use to manually flush the urinals that are suppose to flush automatically, but don't. I was slamming doors and at one point I was swearing out loud. I really shouldn't be doing that in a public school, but I had had it. Then I realized that I won't be working here after June 30th and none of this matters. There is nothing I can do about not having my job anymore and I should just enjoy each day knowing I won't have to pick shit up with my gloved hands (so disgusting) anymore. I don't know if I will get the dispatcher job. I don't know if I should go back to school. I don't know if I should go sell everything and go spread the word of Jesus. I don't know what my future holds. What I do know is that it's up to God what my future is and that's ok. It's his gig. He's in control. He is amazing. I have so much to thank him for. You are so wonderful, my Lord Jesus. I love you so very much!